INITIATION

Got Initiated ???

Waiting for initiation ??

Sometimes we mistakenly believe that we are right candidate for initiation from a PERFECT LIVING MASTER.
And sometimes we mistakenly believe that we are not yet ready for initiation. That we need further preparations.

The truth is that we can never ever be ready for initiation, even if we take million births. We are never right candidates for initiation. It always is HIS love that selects us. That is what brings us in HIS marked sheep fold.

The only thing we can do is -- start trying as soon as possible to become one in that fold. And the only another thing we can do is---- be ready to live the life after initiation.

The more we hedge , the more mind tries to convince us... we are not ready, we are not suitable, we don't need to walk on spiritual path, the lure of world is still too good and too beautiful, we still need to experience some things..... the list of mind's pleas will never end. The only safety is in tightly holding HIS hands. Then we can start walking towards HIM, faltering, taking small steps, sometimes stumbling, sometimes strongly... just keep walking towards HIM....

So first necessity is catching hold of HIS hands... which HE is forever spreading towards us... lovingly... and then learning to walk... towards HIM....

Let's just for a moment pause and think.. what exactly in the meaning of-- INITIATION ??

INITIATION -- in english means - to make  a beginning or to cause somebody to begin a certain course. In hindi the word DIKSHA means-- to take the vow of making a beginning.

INITIATION from a PERFECT LIVING MASTER is one and only miracle in this whole creation. None other can even be called MIRACLE.

This is the only new beginning worth starting . This is what JESUS said --- Accept we be born again we cannot enter the kingdom of GOD.  INITIATION from a Perfect Living MASTER is real new birth.

Now all we need is to prepare ourselves to absorb HIS grace. To reach where HE wants us to reach... :)

First thing--- Prepare for a looooonnnngggg walk home...

Well......no need to become discouraged with this one sentence.....  :)

This is for our own preparation... Few souls are lucky ones, coz they start from where they left at their previous birth... Many of us needs to begin from very beginning. So as soon as we get initiated, we need to tighten our belts and start a long way back home. Since there is too much to clean, collected in million of births. Then again what is one birth ?? in comparison to million others ?? And then again TIME IS OUR PERCEPTION... :) We are used to thinking about everything in connection to time taken and results achieved in such and such time.

For millions of years we kept walking away from HIM. But when it comes to reaching HIM, we feel few months of couple of years should be enough. How far is it justified ?
To achieve the degree of medical science, since birth... it takes almost 30 to 35 years. But in spirituality we need the degree in couple of years after initiation. WOW !! we do have hugest possible EGOS ...

Better sit down and take a deep breath after initiation .. and start thinking about time...... as just a relative period of realization... that we have already reached back home :)

 One complete birth ... or 10- 20- 30- 40 years are nothing... when we have the surety of reaching back home.

There is one very interesting incidence quoted in PURANAS- Shiva was sitting with Nandi. Suddenly there came a loud noise.Nandi asked - what is this sound ? Shiva replied -- Ravana is born. Moment later- there was another loud noise. Nandi asked-- now what is this ?? Shiva smiled and said- Ravana is dead. So this is TIME.. And our perception makes us feel the time as long or short period. So who knows-- we reached SACHKHAND the moment we were initiated. Or probably we were already in SACHKHAND , when HE initiated us.  :)

Prepare ourselves for darkness we encounter.. in coming years, failures we achieve during our feeble attempts. Days after days, years after years... as interest and hope vain, only to jerk start yet again... :)

Trying to adjust our times around meditation... and then trying to adjust best possible time for meditation... Oh !! the lows and highs are sure to arrive even in meditation periods. Not much difference in this and worldly highs and lows...
One thing is for sure... if we have somehow grasped even one drop of HIS grace and somehow found inside ourselves a determination to reach HIM... giving up meditating in any circumstance is no longer an option open to us. NOPE... that is a closed road...

Cultivating Humbleness is must....
Humility makes a seeker a suitable vehicle through which the knowledge , the grace of MASTER can be conveyed. It is said in UPNISHADS-- The disciple must approach the illumined and learned MASTER with firewood in his hand. Firewood is the symbol of service. The service rendered to the MASTER makes a disciple fit to receive the instructions. Spiritual knowledge is a gift from the MASTER to be earned through Humility and Spirit of Service. ( Quote by Swami Bhuteshanand )

Basically humility is what brings down all the barriers we ourselves have put on against receiving HIS grace. HE cannot work against forces that we insist on keeping as shields. Forces or shields  we have acquired through millions of births. Which we are unaware of, and which we have no idea how to bring  down... We were not even aware when we pulled them up, to shield us. We hinder HIS workings on us. And humility is the only thing that enables HIM, to destroy every barrier within us... To completely strip us apart , to fill us with HIS love and grace.

As RUMI Ji says--- 

“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.”

We are unable to find these barriers ... but humility unable HIM to find all barriers and destroy them. :)

Prepare to feel tired and prepare to gear up again in the face of tiredness. :)

There will be days- when meditating will feel like pointless, useless, tough and so on... Mind will tell very convincingly- why keep doing a pointless task ?? One that we are not even very good at ? Period of utmost dryness ... Mind cajoles.. It's so easy to give up... why not just give it up...lowest point.... but there can be more lowest... 

It's then we will need to collect each ounce of energy and keep forging ahead...

Prepare to stand up again in face of all the tiredness....

Prepare for hugest loneliness we have ever experienced in life... As our ego is lying in shreds , heart lies bleeding and HE seem uncaring , unlistening  and silent. The ego which was serving us very well till now. Which kept us functioning in this world... is slowly slowly dying. No longer able to function in this world. No one seems to understand our pain and none can help in easing this pain. As the heart bleeds, knowing that on it's own it can't have the longed for union with HIM... and however much heart silently screams and yearns and calls out to HIM.... HE seems unaware , uncaring.
Neither this world belongs to me , and neither that.... At this point we feel what exactly loneliness is. Till now, when ever we screamed -- i m so lonely, in this world... we actually didn't even had any idea till then what is loneliness ....
So prepare to understand that ... first hand... :)

Prepare to wait for HIS grace.... with our limited perception of time.... :)

For this only one story is enough...

Since childhood we have listened to this story..
Krishna was very fond of butter. He will get inside brajvaasis houses and steal butter. They complained to mother Yashodha. She , to punish Krishna, Tried to tie Him from a tree. She brought one piece of rope and tried to tie Krishna with it. But is fell short by two fingers. Then some more rope was added. But every time it fell short by two fingers. She got exhausted. Ultimately when she was tired and gave up hope, Krishna accepted the bondage.

We cannot bind HIM by any amount of Sadhna. HE accepts us out of HIS grace. This is one thing-- always to be remembered.  Ultimately we have to depend on HIS grace. The consummation of all our meditation is complete surrender to HIM and dependence on HIS grace.....

Ultimately when the ego is shredded and all hope gone... when tired we beseech HIM one last time... and then become silent.... completely silent.... it's then ....... that HE speaks.... ....

So happy journey to all those who got INITIATED.... don't give up walking.... till u become absolutely silent....
And to those waiting or hedging for INITIATION..... get up and go...
Coz this is the only thing worth hankering for.... :)

Peace and Bliss to all

Roohi

RENDEZVOUS WITH HIM ( 3 )

BE IN LOVE :)

We are on the process of having a candle light dinner with HIM.. :)

There is a phrase which as humans we often use---
Oh !! he/she is just in love with love.....

It conveys the idea that the person about whom we are saying this, is not actually in love. But is in love with the idea of " Love ".

Are we in love with the idea of having this Divine Love... or do we actually know how to love HIM ??

So we have to actually learn to Love HIM :) And as we discussed earlier that we have no idea what unconditional love actually is... thus we don't know how to love HIM....

Let's just see what kind of symptoms we encounter in sayings of many such souls, who knows what it is to Love HIM...

This love, is actually HIS gift to us. It's HIS pull, which finally gives us the taste of Divine Love.

Sai BULLEHSHAH Ji says...

AAPEY PAAIYAAN KUNDIYAA TAIN TEY AAPEY HE KHICHDA HAI DOR...

HE HIMSELF attracts HIS soul and starts pulling HIS soul towards HIM.

But still  ....  If somehow there is a spark starting inside us, why now make it a raging inferno ?? And try to do whatever possible to keep this fire burning ? Just don't be in love with the idea of love... Just LOVE HIM...

How ??

There is Jewish  saying- GOD is a jealous BELOVED.

Till there is one single spark left inside us , for any kind of worldly love, HE won't accept our heart. HE needs our undivided complete heart. When the whole heart is filled with HIM and HIM alone, only then we can think that love is shining here, residing here.
First thing is to empty and clean our complete heart and make the place worthy of HIS residing...

DIL KA HUZRA SAAF KAR JANAA KE AANE KE LIYE.....

Clean and empty your heart to make space for only HIM....

With this will come seeking only HIM. If thereby we have unhappiness , it is welcome. if thereby there is discontent , it is welcome. If there come pain of separation and fire of yearning... that is more then welcome....

How and why do we love HIM ?

Why do we love ourselves ? We love ourselves coz we cannot help it. For a lover that same reason stands true...
We love HIM coz we cannot help loving HIM... We don't love HIM, coz HE is ultimate power and HE can grant us anything we want or we need. We don't love HIM coz HE can give us ultimate love. We don't love HIM coz then HE will take us out of this miserable world and free us from cycles of numerous births and deaths...


We love HIM coz HE is soooo lovable... :) And we can not help loving HIM.  How can a soul help not loving HIM ?? A lover is not even concerned about receiving love back from BELOVED. He is just happy in loving his BELOVED. His complete joy resides in this loving his very own BELOVED.

Our third MASTER gave us the example of this Love. HE was content to sit in back , watching HIS own MASTER saying something , doing something. HE would just sit quietly and keep watching HIS MASTER. And when HIS MASTER turned to ask HIM HIS opinion about something. HE just said whatever YOU say HUZUR. And HUZUR used to just smile at HIS answer. Helplessly in love with HIM.....

There is one example in "Bhagwat ". When Krishna was gone with cows for whole day, Gopis would feel bereft. And in the evening when He would come back, they will run to have His darshan, forsaking all their household duties. They would just sit and watch Him playing flute. At that time when there was winking of the eyes, they would be annoyed with the eyes. They felt that the creator who created this winking, must be absolutely without any idea, how much suffering this winking can cause to a lover. That one moment looked like one yuga . That much loosing sight of BELOVED felt like an age, to a lover. Once one gopi was very sick. Wasn't even able to leave her bed. When the flute of Krishna started playing her heart flew towards BELOVED, But her body failed her. Her disgust for limiting body, and suffering for loosing the time with BELOVED was so great that she gave up her body.

There is nothing to divide a Lover from BELOVED. Not even BELOVED's greatness can keep a Lover apart. There are so many of us, struggling with our weakness and unworthiness. That this feeling keeps us away from completely loving HIM. HE is great .... no doubt. HE is King of Kings... And yet for a Lover HE is.....just.... mine..... :)

Coz when you love HIM... how can any thought about own self remain ?? Where is that faculty ?? which judges and passes judgement -- that you are worthy or unworthy for such and such.... ??
A lover is not capable of having that much thought about himself. A lover is just busy in loving BELOVED...

Then there is one another such story. Once Krishna's wife Rukamani , wanted to know... why He loves and keeps remembering and missing Gopis so much ?? He just smiled and didn't answered. Sometime later He fell sick. Complaining of stomach ache. Now the doctor that treated Him, gave this remedy... A water used by true lover of Krishna, to wash her feets. Krishna drinking that water will be cured. First Rukamani was asked to wash her feet and give this water for Krishna to drink. Now it is said that one who does this and make An Avatar drink such water, will go to hell. She refuse to be such a sinner , to make her God drink this water. Many others supposedly in love with Krishna were asked to give this water. Everyone refused. A messenger was sent to the place where Gopis resides. When they were given this message. And were asked that their BELOVED is suffering so much pain. They never flickered even for a moment. They straight away washed their feet and gave this water to messenger. Urging him to make haste. For every moment of Krishna's suffering was unbearable to them...

They never received social platform to be treated as Krishna's consorts. In fact all they received was criticism and pain from families. With this single act they doomed themselves for hell ( supposedly )

And yet, what is the fear of hell in front of Love.. ?? Rukamani got her answer.....

So why do we love HIM ??  Coz there is nothing else.... to love.... Not even liberation.....
What's more important then love? To be in Love, to experience love. What's seperation or union in front of just loving HIM ??

Just being able to love HIM.... is more then enough. Every moment spent in loving HIM is ..... beyond words... :) Ah !! the inadequacy of words .......

So Krishna says in "Bhagwat "-- How can I give adequate return , the love that i receive from gopis ?
Where such lovers go, I go behing them so that the dust of their feet may fall upon me and I may be purified.
That is the highest tribute anyone can pay to a human being--- a Lover of Divine BELOVED.

Somewhere SHRI GURU NANAK JI says-

JAN NANAK DHOOD MANGEY TIS GURU SIKH DE,
JO AAP JAPEY AWARO NAAM JAPAWEY...

 One Perfect MASTER is telling us that even HE loves such Lovers... ( disciples ) who loves their BELOVED and teaches through their own behavior to love HIM....
By constant remembrance...... By just loving HIM.... without asking, needing anything in return....or even dreaming about having any benefit of loving HIM....  not even HIS love in return....

Just happy being in love with HIM.... enjoying all the moments of loving HIM and only HIM....

May HE grant us capacity of such unconditional love.....

AMEN...

So do YOU love me my MASTER ?????   :)

Peace and bliss to all....

  Roohi....