DON’T SACRIFICE-

BAHUT KATIN HAI DAGAR PANGHAT KE-
[ HARD IS THE ROAD BACK TO BELOVED--]

Spiritual growth comes at a very high price. So all of us out there trying to walk the path shud better tie our belts more tightly. As our MASTER tells us- when u are going for fox hunting be prepared as if u are going for lion hunting.

There is still one more thing MASTER tells us- we can’t put both our feets in two boats. We can’t reach any where. Nor in this boat, not in that. Coz both the boats are going in different directions. We have to choose one and then plant both our feets firmly in one boat.

Now there are two choices for us. Those who are manmukh and those who are gurumukh. Manmukh boat leads us to this world. Where we actually are living. With all the everchanging scenario of this world, we try to struggle thru living our life best possible way trying to find what little happiness we can find here. Which is never enuf. As soon as we find happiness thru one thing we need another. And so we keep pursuing happiness which is always elusive. At the very best in the end of our life we may think that I cud have lived better. Which is almost everyone who feels this way in the end. I cud have lived better. If life gives me another chance I will do much better this time. But the question is- will we get that second chance???

Those who belief in reincarnation can still not honestly say will they get this human birth again? Or if they really do get another human birth. They won’t remember the mistakes done in this one..or the last thought of—if I get second chance.

So it’s endless pursuing of that elusive happiness or I cud have done better. Or life cud be better.

But those who are walking on the path of gurumukh. They have the chance to find that forever peace and bliss. Coz they aim to merge in that forever infinity which is all love and happiness. The spiritual path which gives us promise of merging in ultimate creator and never having to run again in this marathon of finding happiness.

So choice is ours. Which path we want to walk? Do we want to give another try to this world. Or do we want to give our best effort to the path of spirituality.

Many souls have tried hard to find the right path which leads back to that entity we call GOD. Many have choosen many paths available. And we who are walking in the guidance of a living MASTER…instinctively feel that we are on the right path. A path which is going to lead us back home. And so we start walking in dubious- can we do this? Let’s try—we do have MASTER’S promise and grace with us, kind of attitude. And yet mostly failing on the way. Stumbling, often giving up and yet not quiet able to leave completely, again picking up kind of way thru years. Honestly hoping to get the glimpse of that spiritual world MASTER tells us about and yet as years pass by loosing hope in our capability which we from the beginning doubted we have and most of the souls end up questioning the validity of path itself. And yet there are those lucky souls which keep silently immersed in HIS love. Always silent never speaking of those valuable treasures that they have found within. If they speak up probably most of us won’t question the path 20 years down the lane. But GOD wants to see our own yearnings. HE can always bestow the treasures in just a blink of a moment. But do we deserve them? Will we be able to understand the value of the treasure given to us. No we can’t.

Saints never became saints in just 2 hours daily. They became saints by being saint 24 hours a day. That is the commitment GOD needs from us. To be HIS completely. Every hour every moment.

As a human beings we have the habit of trying to get that one happiness which has high cost. Most expensive car, most beautiful house, another car another house another latest technological device. We work very hard to achieve them but the day we get them we don’t feel elated for long. Coz we want something more higher yet. We are unable to enjoy the fruits of what we single mindedly wanted and is now finally ours. So how can we change our selves and know the value of treasures that GOD can bestow to us without working hard. We can’t. HE needs to see our single mindedness to achieve HIS everlasting love. So that we can treasure when HE chooses to bestow HIS love on us. We can understand the value of what has been given to us.

HE needs us to plant both our feets firmly on the boat that leads us back home. To HIM. And mostly we go thru life trying to live up to both worlds. This world with it’s present allures which we can see and that one which saints tells us exists, but we haven’t seen it. MASTER tells us- if we can but imagine or see what lies within we will never try to turn our face towards this world ever. But we don’t know that. Do we?


Faith is believing what u don’t yet see and reward is getting what u believed in without seeing.
At the best we can always have faith.

Spiritual growth comes at a very high cost after all it is forever. But we walking on the path tend to overlook the price it asks for. Meditation and going within, withdrawing soul current from body from where it permeates in this world via senses needs high price. Already since this soul came in this world it has acquired the habit of going outwards. Turning that opposite direction current needs huge effort. It also needs many sacrifices. Which we never think about. We only sit down half heartedly in darkened room and tell our MASTER I m not capable, u asked me to make efforts I m doing it. Now it’s upto ur grace. U said if I walk one step u will take 100 towards me. Now take those 100. I m waiting. Open the doors within. So I can taste the glory. Yet we are not ready to pay any price. But we are quick to blame MASTER and the path.

There is a story. One very evolved Mahatma while roaming around reached in a village and decided to stay at a poor woman’s home. Who welcomed mahatma and offered her hospitality. But she didn’t had any food to offer to mahatma in the morning. So whole night she stitched clothes. In the morning she sold those clothes and brought things to prepare meal. Then she cooked food and offered to mahatma. Which he took. That night when he sat down for spiritual practice, he was unable to withdraw his soul current. Though he tried hard. Next morning he asked the woman how she arranged for food. She told him by selling clothes she stitched. He asked when did u stitch ? she told him in the night. And how did u do the work in the night. From where did u arrange the light needed to stitch? Then she told him- in the nearby hut a prostitute lives. As her profession needs lamp for whole night she stitched clothes with the help of her burning lamp. Then mahatma said- becoz of the food prepared in unethical way, I was not able to withdraw my soul current.

If a highly evolved mahatma can suffer via food intake of unethically prepared means. Then how can we expect results? Do we ever think of what spiritual practice needs? The sacrifices it demands? Are we ready to pay them?

We go to MacDonald’s and other such restaurants which prepare non-veg items too. If we see their kitchens we will come to know how much non-veg we consume. And we tell ourselves proudly that we follow the vows of being vegetarian. And that night again we expect results in our meditation.

Whole day going thru our various jobs, we display anger, jealousy and other negative feelings for fellow humans. Hurting many in process. Or getting hurt and becoming abusive, even if in our own mind. Venting our feeling of injustice being done to us. As soon as we do this… we hamper our meditation. How can we expect HIM to shower HIS love that night when we ourself has been bad to our fellow creatures. Isn’t expecting results then from our side becomes hypocrisy?

Once MASTER said that our own mind will tell us daily , do we deserve that treasure of love?
Shud we care to listen to it’s truth. Which we never do. We ignore.

One lustful thought , and do we qualify to hope GOD to be seated in that heart?

To even hope that GOD chooses to show HIS face to us, we need to go thru life long sacrifices. Are we ready to sacrifice and change whole our life and finally put both our feets on one single boat of spirituality? Remember HE has given us means to achieve this. Our meditation is that weapon with the help of which we can achieve this. But we need to put sincere efforts. Our efforts shud be in training our mind to sit and become silent. Not the half hearted efforts of going thru 2 hours daily. But sincere efforts to silence the thoughts, and lovingly gaze at the darkness within. As MASTER said… six months of sincere efforts and the disciple must go within.

Along with these sacrifices which is needed to withdraw the soul current. As the concentration is achieved the disciple must go within.

One spiritual truth and we become afraid. Oh this is some thing I can’t sacrifice. And we start calling it ritual or dogma or blame the path. Coz we are unable to digest the truth that spiritual practice and withdrawal results demands sacrifices. Coz we know we can’t yet give up allures of this world completely.

Human tendency is that at the old age of life when a man is free of most responsibilities he tends to look back towards the life he has lived so far and tell himself he cud have lived better.

Why look back to the road traveled so far. Why not look ahead towards the distance yet needed to be covered. Looking back always makes us stumble in further growth. Why not keep our gaze always fixed ahead?

20 years down the lane…walking thru this path, trying to sacrifice each and every thing that comes between us and the beloved, if we are ready to handle even disappoint if it comes our way…[ though it shudn’t. coz HE knows our sincere efforts. And HE is more anxious to see us within. HE is more then ready , in fact HE is waiting to shower HIS love to a tired soul.] But shud we still remain away from HIS beloved face…then are we ready to take the disappointment? Or will we ask ourselves? I cud atleast have enjoyed the life. Cud have gone to restaurants, cud have taken that extra money, cud have fulfilled this or that desire.

NA KHUDA MILA NA VISAALE SANAM….
If this is where we are going to land…then better don’t make sacrifice. We can always go on living life to fullest and performing the duty of 2 and half hour. But then we shudn’t complain of not getting results. At the very best we can have the satisfaction of living life and doing duty towards HIM too. HE never asked to make sacrifices. It’s our own intellect that tells us oh!! I did this and so I shud get results. Again isn’t this ego??? Who are we to decide that we are right candidates to see results? And we know ego is that one thing which keeps us away from HIM..

Or give our best try..with all the sacrifices this path demands from us. Our best shot…and HE the infinite love is bound to shower HIS grace. But never complaining. Coz as jesus says—I m going to prepare the abode for u. with our best efforts HE is preparing our home coming even if it takes this whole life time. In comparison to millions of years, one life time is nothing.

It's only human nature which asks i did so much for u what u did for me? GOD never asks i did so much for u and yet u complain. what u did for me?? we at some point even don't hesitate to ask our own kids- i did so much for u, what u did? or expect that i did so much they shud do soo much or more in return.

Ultimately this is the path of loving faith. And faith is all that counts in the end.
At the very best we have the satisfaction of lived our life as dignified human beings. Coz that is what this path makes us. And we have the satisfaction of giving our best. And as a reward we will one day get to see what we believed in. The radiant face of our MASTER.

Don’t sacrifice if in the end our ego is going to tell us how much I did for U MASTER. What did U do?

Choice is our’s …do we choose to remain in both boats, or try our best to get on one boat. HIS boat.

CHOICES-

Saints tells us that this life is just a dream. A prewritten play and we are merely acting out what is already written , so in a way, already happened. That our prarabdh this life’s destiny as well as what we will be , what our nature will be are already decided even before our body is decided. Even the hairs on our head, the breaths we are allotted and the morsels we eat are all predestined. So we actually don’t have much choices in our life which we can take on our own. If it’s written that we are supposed to take wrong decision we will take that. So if we really deeply think it over it will be sooo much more easier for us to remain in HIS will. As actually we don’t have any freedom or free will as such. For us walking on the path it’s relief to know that our destiny is in capable hands of our FATHER, our GOD.. though each soul’s destiny is in capable hands of one who is the sanchalak of this world and none has free will, but for us walking on spiritual path we atleast have this knowledge and our own acceptance. So do we have any choices? Actually none… but still as our ego demands us to function at some level, till we are apart in our mind..from HIM… we need to make some choices or act out as if we are making some choices.

We who are walking on this path that we so called “chose”, reminding ourselves that it was HIS calling to us that made us come on this path back to home where our soul actually belongs struggle thru so many choices. And yet often times failing. Once read this wonderful sentence- that when we take those vows necessary to walk on this path, we have no choice but to fulfill them if we want to reach back home. But doesn’t that tells as if we become slaves? And that make our mind revolt. But actually we have choice. If we think positively. Our GOD hasn’t asked us to become slaves. HE has asked to become lovers. As HE is the only true lover who actually loves us. Remaining in HIS will is so much easier if we feel that we are actually making this choice due to love for HIM and love makes everything so easy. This is called active participation in our destiny which HE has so lovingly written for us so that we can finally reach home to HIM. It’s not as if HE has become a dictator and we HIS slaves, with no choice but to follow HIM and feeling negatively ..oh it’s written and so we have to bear it any how… or we can choose it positively oh, my love my BELOVED has decided this so it’s best for me and it’s one step more nearer to HIM…to be finally able to merge in HIM.


It’s said that with every negativity on spiritual path the negative force feeds on our soul. Negative force being kaal who kept our soul imprisoned here in this world for centuries now. Now that we finally have our beloved calling on to us. We can always choose to be positive. This is our first choice that we can make. For HIM……

Then there is question of our vows. That we struggle so hard to keep. Why do we struggle. Coz some where deep inside our mind we feel that this has been forced on us. We don’t actually love those vows, in this world where senses are stimulated thru every media possible. It’s soo much more easier in satyug or dwapar. When they didn’t have so much mediums for sense gratifications. Here in our modern era we have simply tooo much telling our senses that we need this to become happy or lead easy life. It’s so hard to keep holding our selves back from each and every sense gratification.


Let’s for a moment think as those humans who never heard of this path. We have ourselves known love at some point of our life in any form. Be it love for our parents, a lover, brother or sister, or a friend whom we love to distraction. And then there are those love stories which appeals to our loving nature, or the craving of love inside us. And so we watch all those love stories like dilwale dulhaniya le jayenge, kal ho na ho, kuch kuch hota hai. And thus making them block busters. Coz in each human being there beats a heart which craves for such sacrificing and yearning kind of love who wants to win love at any cost, ready to sacrifice so much.

It appeals to our basic nature when we see a triangle in love story. Where one person silently sacrifice his or her love coz the person he or she loves is in deep love with some one else. Content to remain his or her friend in need, a shoulder to lean on. Or a lover leaving his or her home and traveling great distance just to win his or her’s parents approval with good behaviors and sacrifice so that he or she can finally marry the person he or she loves. The story involves some times years of sacrifice and patience. Of silent unacknowledged love. And yet we love those stories. Coz some how some where we crave for same kind of deep commitment. For such deep love that years apart can’t diminish or break.

This is the craving of our soul. And we actually has that kind of lover. Since the day our soul crying came to this world separated from our source our GOD and HE promised to call us back. While we forgot all about HIM as we took company of mind and senses, vaguely feeling an absence, since those eons of years HE never forgot us. And kept loving us. Finding any excuse to bring us back to call us back. Who knows HE actually grabbed first excuse available to call back many of souls. We never deserved this, as we were the one’s who forgot HIM.. not HIM. HE didn’t.

Now that we understood our craving our yearning of that kind of deep committed love is for our source and that source is waiting for us to reach back and merge in HIM.. we can actually choose to be positive about our commitment. Now is the time for actually living one of those love story. And be a part of that love. Experience that deep love and for that choosing to make any sacrifice required.

Now is our time to be a hero or heroine of that love story. Silently choosing to love deeply and wisely.

It won’t matter to HIM if we keep those vows lovingly or pressurized coz we want to taste that spiritual bliss that books tells us, is within us. But it would matter to us. If we choose those vows with love and positivity rather then feeling…oh I have to keep this vow since I promised. It would matter coz then it’s easier to keep those vows and take active participation. There won’t be a moments hesitation when we are called to choose between our vow or sense gratification. Not a single hesitation.

All we have to do is to feel HIS love and then for that love prepare ourselves for any sacrifice demanded. All we have to do is to choose between our love , the little love we feel for HIM bestowed on us by HIM, and rest of the world. And I believe that feeling of even a little love for HIM will always out weigh the rest of the world.


Making active choice to keep those vows, telling ourselves --- I choose to keep those vows. Will help us tremendously with so much postivity that all our energy will feel charged with love to never hamper our choices. Coz that’s how we are made. We can do anything for the choices we make. And go to any length.

So now when we are prepared to make those choices actively it won’t be hard at all to keep those vows.

To choose our vow of never taking any non-veg or alcohol, we become more conscious more vigilant. When it comes to choose between places where non-veg is also served, restaurants where drinks are also served, friends who make or prepare non- veg dishes , using utensils in which non-veg is cooked or simple eating of fruits and dairy products. We will never hesitate to even leave that thing which hampers our vows. There will be no question of choice ..coz where ever our vow is hampered there choice doesn’t exists….

When it comes to ethical earning of our livelihood there will never be a question of choice between..taking unethical money to fulfill the desire of better car, better television or another house or plot, or not having such desires which asks us to go for unethical money. Coz we choose to follow and fulfill our vow.

When it come to the choice of moral living , there won’t ever be question of choice. Or hesitation. Coz we know that true love we already have. In this world there is nothing that can ever compare or come at par to that love. HIS love. For those who have once tried to find this love and failing they won’t ever want to try here again. Coz they already know the futility. Those living with a partner and yet feeling deep loneliness already knows that this loneliness is to be cherished as it will take the soul more closer to HIM…choosing consciously to find that everlasting love and merging in this love will never let the question of moral living arise.

And last and not the least choosing to remain in memory or remembrance of HIS love contemplating in lover’s form , choosing to remain in loved one’s company is something which every lover knows how to do or rather is the only thing which a lover wants to do. We all know how beautiful it is to live even in the memory of person whom we love. Remaining alone in solitude and going thru loved one’s memory again and again and again… is some thing every lover knows how to do or what pleasure this can bring or yearning it can bring to be near our loved one again. If we can just change this pleasure and this yearning for one true love…all our wanderings in search for that elusive happiness is over. Coz with each day…with our little shaky efforts to be near HIM to feel that pleasure for HIM or yearning for HIM…we actually come near HIM… though we may not know it now. One day we will….

So now is the time for being that hero or heroine in that love story of that movie which we once loved which told us the years of patient waiting for loved one. For sacrifices made for loved one. Even without ever hope for belonging to that loved one yet going on loving and loving and loving. To become that heer or ranjha, laila or majnu , shiri or farhaad , romeo or Juliet or even raaj or simran…

That is all meditation is. That is all those hours means. Sitting in the dark. Waiting for lover to appear, sometimes feeling HIS presence feeding thru little memory HE choose to bestow on us. Some times bringing pleasure sitting in that dark room and some time bringing deep yearning to once just once see HIS beloved face. And some times feeling even HIS apparent “bedardi” as nothing happens. That is all meditation is…our time to live that love story. Only the reward is faaar greater and certain… as there is no failure in this love story and no sad ending.


Peace to all....