Since childhood i used to crave for something , not knowing what ? used to talk to GOD. " in conversation with God".
Believeing HE hears every little petty stupid ramblings of my mind. I tried to compose love poems and eventually forgot all about them as life took over. The day i found them again i realised that even then my soul was calling out to one true love of my soul... My MASTER. even then without knowing all my wait was for HIM. But when HE finally arrived in my life, i was very skeptical. What to do with this new turn of my life. I yearned and cried for HIM to hold my hands , never believing honestly that HE will. But HE did.. i promised to do every thing HE asked. And when HE entered in my life i turned away to live my life. with this nagging something always in my mind... i promised, i promised.
HE waited calmly. And again took me in HIS arms as a butterfly lay shattered. Gave new wings to fly... towards ultimate love. HIS love.
Only HIS love is, nothing else is.
As this soul turned towards HIM finally, many things started making sense in this otherwise senseless world. And started understanding what this Path is about , where it leads. Still can't believe what was given to this soul and this soul never understood it's worth. But that was a phase of karmas to burn out. Every thing is perfect. HIS way of working, HIS every action in our life is so perfect. Some times i feel deep sense of laughter bubbling out of me, to see HIS perfection.
Spirituality --- the path that chose me, :) is a path of perfection and love. And MY MASTER for me is that thread that keeps the stitched cloth holding together from falling apart in this otherwise senseless stage of drama. If this thread is not there, every thing falls apart. But mercifully this thread is always there, always exists, hidden from our view.
As my soul whispers - MASTER.... a deep sense of peace and stillness and love bubbles up, surrounds me and emmeresed in this well being and bliss .. this soul carries on journey towrads Home and HIM. :)
I first saw HIS dear face in the magazine . and was facinated with HIS eyes. Then read the book "Atmaa ka safar"[ the journey of a soul]
and when asked about my view on this book... i uttered these words to my amazement- "i m a marked soul. "
The moment these words were out for me my destiny was sealed with HIM. Though it was sealed much much before . Before i took this birth. But that day i invited HIM. HE accepted. :)
Exactly 2 years before i wasn't aware of HIS existence on this earth. HE was for me some where deep inside my heart .. to talk to but never expecting any answer back. And exactly 2 years after, today i can't even think of existing without HIM, and i expect every answer coming my way... and they do... :)
On this blog this soul will share not intellectual talks or preachings, i m incapable of this. this soul will share "JUST EHSAAS"... ONLY FEELINGS....
The heart which is capable of so many feelings, is filled with feelings meant only for my MASTER... and my believe is that a heart which beats for HIS love, is making best of it's every beat.
So here after this brief post about this soul's journey towards it's MASTER... this soul will just share feelings worthy for HIM..
MY GOD....:)
