MIRACLE....
So many of us... thru the journey of life, have felt the need for Miracle. One, or may be at times, many Miracles. None of us, i can safely say, is unaware of this need.
I too have once yearned for Miracle. So i understand the feeling.
When my first born son got very sick. And doctors were unable to diagnose his problem. As he lay in my arms, his small body jerking with Seizures. I came to know he suffered Meningitis. Doctors in AIIMS told me... that the diagnose was so late that already his many brain cells were dead. He lost his power to swallow. SO will be on drip for whole his life... If he lived. If he lived he will become vegetable... for whole his life... That he was one brave soul. That even strong grown ups succumb to this much pain within 48 hours. And he was already fighting this pain since 72 hours. For first time in my whole life..... I understood the yearning for just one miracle. Just one... One that will save his life... I remember that whole night. With his small body in my laps... i prayed to every Deity i can remember. And desperately hoped for One single Miracle.... For you see.... I believed in Miracle...
No HE was not in my life then.. I wasn't aware of HIS existence on earth till then.
I was angry.. when my first born died ... Yet, as some cosmic joke... i still kept believing in Miracles...
So many of us... thru the journey of life, have felt the need for Miracle. One, or may be at times, many Miracles. None of us, i can safely say, is unaware of this need.
I too have once yearned for Miracle. So i understand the feeling.
When my first born son got very sick. And doctors were unable to diagnose his problem. As he lay in my arms, his small body jerking with Seizures. I came to know he suffered Meningitis. Doctors in AIIMS told me... that the diagnose was so late that already his many brain cells were dead. He lost his power to swallow. SO will be on drip for whole his life... If he lived. If he lived he will become vegetable... for whole his life... That he was one brave soul. That even strong grown ups succumb to this much pain within 48 hours. And he was already fighting this pain since 72 hours. For first time in my whole life..... I understood the yearning for just one miracle. Just one... One that will save his life... I remember that whole night. With his small body in my laps... i prayed to every Deity i can remember. And desperately hoped for One single Miracle.... For you see.... I believed in Miracle...
No HE was not in my life then.. I wasn't aware of HIS existence on earth till then.
I was angry.. when my first born died ... Yet, as some cosmic joke... i still kept believing in Miracles...
I have learned so much in my life...
Most of all...
I have seen and become aware of cosmic plan going on without my consent, interference and as per it's own planning. Made me realize first hand.. nothing is in my hand. Cosmic plan is not bothered about if i am ready or not. Cosmic plan is least bothered about my acceptance or lack of it. It doesn't care about my participation or not... if it requires me to participate... I WILL.
I have seen smallest scene being played out and became aware.. i was always too small even to stop that particular SMALLEST event. Let alone big or huge ones. Makes me sooo dispensable... Just a speck of dirt in huge cosmic drama... A dent on EGO ??
Most of all...
I have seen and become aware of cosmic plan going on without my consent, interference and as per it's own planning. Made me realize first hand.. nothing is in my hand. Cosmic plan is not bothered about if i am ready or not. Cosmic plan is least bothered about my acceptance or lack of it. It doesn't care about my participation or not... if it requires me to participate... I WILL.
I have seen smallest scene being played out and became aware.. i was always too small even to stop that particular SMALLEST event. Let alone big or huge ones. Makes me sooo dispensable... Just a speck of dirt in huge cosmic drama... A dent on EGO ??
But to day.... i am again in need of Miracle... And believe me... the stakes this time are higher. For it doesn't concern any worldly boon or desire... For this is concerned with BELOVED HIMSELF.. And as i have experienced the yearning for JUST ONE MIRACLE... first hand. So i think i know this feeling very well...
Once someone... told me... Any desire related to HIM .... HE always fulfills. Today same words were echoed by one more of HIS beloved child. I do believe in signs ....
But this time my heart quivers.... For the need is tooo high. Even higher then wanting my first born son to live... And i am scared... for i am still human after all ..... Still in grip of mind after all....
A soul has walked a long way .... and a tired soul needs this rest in BELOVED'S arms... in HIS company. For rest of time.... Forever....
Only this much Miracle is needed. From that ONE POWER... who has all the power...
AND...
MY MOMENT OF MIRACLE IS WAITING...
Once someone... told me... Any desire related to HIM .... HE always fulfills. Today same words were echoed by one more of HIS beloved child. I do believe in signs ....
But this time my heart quivers.... For the need is tooo high. Even higher then wanting my first born son to live... And i am scared... for i am still human after all ..... Still in grip of mind after all....
A soul has walked a long way .... and a tired soul needs this rest in BELOVED'S arms... in HIS company. For rest of time.... Forever....
Only this much Miracle is needed. From that ONE POWER... who has all the power...
AND...
MY MOMENT OF MIRACLE IS WAITING...
Peace And Bliss to All.. Roohi
