Wednesday, July 27, 2011

MUSINGS OF A SPIRITUAL TRAVELLER

The name of all the MASTERS have been omitted deliberately. Since  MASTER doesn't approve such activities. :) If anyone needs the source of quotes contact the blogger. 





MASTER once said…

IN FACT NO OTHER PERSON SHUD B HAPPY IN THIS WORLD AS AN INITIATE WHO IS ON THE PATH. HE SHUD ALWAYS KEEP HIS GOAL IN SIGHT- THE TREASURES THE JOYS N THE BLISS THAT AWAITS HIM IN HIS TRUE HOME.

GIVE UP ALL FEELINGS OF DEPRESSION N LIVE JOYOUS LIFE, FULLY RELAXED N THANKING THE LORD FOR THE GREAT GIFT HE HAS CONFERRED UPON U. KEEP UR THOUGHTS IN SIMRAN N BHAJAN N SEE WHAT HAPPINESS U WILL FIND WITHIN URSELF. DO NOT WORRY ABOUT ANYTHING IN THIS LIFE, WHICH IS ALL AN UNPLEASENT DREAM. THE REAL LIFE LIES BEYOND, WHERE UR MASTER AWAITS U..


This soul always tried to write her articles as using this soul rather then I or me. And yet I m one of those persons who always felt that  acknowledge or say only those things which either u believe or have experienced. Just saying all those theories which we memorise reading spiritual scriptures or sayings of enlightened MASTERS like a parrot is hypocrisy. So have I experienced the elimination of ego. ?? No. and yet using this soul confuses the reader. So today I will be using “I”. and anyways these are completely mine musings and my believes.

So what started these musings?? Well they are ever present. But we actively try to sort out those puzzles which at times circumstances push us to actively solve. It was MASTER’s shimla visit, that triggered me on this musings part. And pushed me towards pause-and-take-a-look part. It was not a good journey. Reaching shimla thru hard hilly terrain. Without any hope of  having that one thing which the soul crave most. HIS nearest possible darshan. Since we were running late. We reached there thru much drama, and there it was .. a huge waiting line. And we stood there, in that miles long line waiting for doors to open. And then things happened. Very subtle. Ones that only a spiritual seeker may realise. The lines dropped, the sakhis recounted and HIS sayings compared. Time flew. And suddenly the doors were opened. No pushings, nothing. Very disciplined we entered. And I got the place to sit … near HIM. And the 45 min started. What happens thru it all, is every seekers personal experience. Which is always precious. But one thing was sure. I came out much wiser, much calmer, and much sad. As now it will be next year when I can possibly visit HIM, unless HE takes pity. Which HE always does. J

Now the musings. Once a spiritual traveller talked about his father. And may he forgive me for quoting his tale, but it’s one thing which stayed with me forever. His father before dying said one thing- “ nothing is outside, everything is inside ( he pointed to the spiritual eye. ) “ and though I never met this traveller’s father, only saw his father’s picture. Yet I can almost always close my eyes and see his father saying this while pointing towards the spiritual eye.

We , the spiritual seekers or travellers, always starts and pursue our journey with only one aim. Seeing the light within. The dropping of veil, and enjoying the inner realms. Probably many of us wants to run from our mundane existence.. and be something or someone of consequence. Even if do not ever think or revealing the inner treasure. Yet there is always a smug happiness / expression involved. Of being at better place then others. We are looking towards that closed veil / dark door so much, feeling myriad of emotions, sometime hopeful, sometimes frustrated , sometimes sceptical.  That we fail to see subtle yet, wonderful changes taking place within us.

That’s what these musings were about. What have we achieved so far? Dark door? Closed veil ?? and yet why am I happy??

Things haven’t changed a bit around me. Circumstances are still hard. Sometimes things even border upto pain par bearing. And yet what has happened??

We are looking at our failures inside us. Failing to reach the light. And yet the light, HIS love and light is surrounding us more surely. Here ‘s how and what we always fail to perceive. Things and changes coming thru our journey. –


Are we  still irrational and irritable , frustrated or angry person?
we fail to see…. we have changed.

There is wonderful thing—if we want to see how much we have progressed or succeeded, don’t judge it on the scale of comparison with others. Judge it thru comparison of ur own self yesterday. And from this scale- we change daily. We progress daily, we succeed daily. We are defiantly better person then we were  yesterday. Much controlled, much easily bouncing back from any adverse circumstance that life puts in front of us.

we forgive very easily or readily. Wait a minute. ….. there is no such thing as forgiveness inside us. Coz whom shud we forgive. ?? how can a puppet blame another puppet? If we need to forgive anyone then we are judging a puppet. For the acts done by a puppet are guided by puppeteer. And they are perfect. J

Many of u will understand what I just said. And many who have yet to come to this experience will wonder. But not to worry. It’s there around the corner. This experience is ours to have at the right time.

The past is wiped clean.  The holdings are gone. we have learned to let go. we have learned to flow. we can now read spiritual scriptures and understand them. As for me --Four years ago, I cudn’t even read one line without actually yawning and putting it all down on table. Asking myself who on the earth read these boring things? And now my siblings thinks the same for me.

We are  no longer bored while sitting in a waiting rooms of doctors, reservations, trains to arrive, traffic jams to disperse,  catching the wrong longer routes. we don’t even have within us the impatience to reach to the end of journey. We are  at ease. Since there is one thing we can always carry with us. we can carry our LOVE, our GOD with us every where.

We are in love with silence and solitude. People run away from these and we crave for these. Where does the day go? we have no idea. we have no idea how world is working? How  house hold is working. But we do know.. things move on.. things change. we can perceive world moving on changing and yet we are still.  we can perceive the drama. That goes on around us.

We are no longer capable of judging what others perceive as evil acts. We can no longer see others as mere humans or insects. Etc etc. for there resides a soul, a drop of HIS divine love.

We suddenly listen to each and every teaching of MYSTICS, and try our best to follow. At least we put an effort.

There is a huge opening of heart. We can feel it every time we let go. And every time we feel HE is in perfect control.

We learn to completely live under MASTER’s directions. Slowly but surely, we stop even questioning HIM, why shud we do this and that. And we learn to see the truth behind HIS every sayings. Once MASTER was asked- if everything we are now living is our prarabdh ( destined ) karma. The how do we know that what ever is coming our way is due to prarabdh ( destiny ) or are we making new karmas. HE answered- you don’t know. Not until you are uplifted enuf to have inner knowledge. Till then u don’t know. So how to live life then? Live and act for each thing as if u r making a new karma. Kriyaman karma.  If we think about this, we seldom want to stray from path. Since we don’t want to sow new seeds. That’s what growth is all about.

MASTER was also once asked how to live life and take decision. ? HE answered, judge it on this scale- will this act or decision take u near GOD, or further from GOD. ? HE has given such easy scale to judge. And it’s always easy to give up every thing which mite take us away from HIM/ GOD. And when in dilemma about which one will take us where. Just take that road which u know for sure won’t displease HIM. Life and making decisions becomes so simple. With this scale to live life with us. And so we learn to live our life according to our spiritual guidelines. This is growth. Isn’t it.

Putting our time with HIM at top most priority, rest all becomes so much easier. We know what to give up and what we can still keep doing.

Facing harshness , pain and criticism becomes easier. Since our heart is never running out needing other’s opinions. Our heart is sitting silently inside, just looking towards HIM , waiting for HIM to say something, fearing HIS displeasure, and craving HIS approbation only.

Working on anything becomes easier, since our mind is reverted towards HIS memory. World silently fades away. And while before we loved to spend time with others. Now we are so content with just HIS company. Gradually every faked we cherish and carry starts to leave us, and we are naked . this is all the growth we miss . since we are looking towards the closed veil. Waiting for light to shine thru. 


Somewhere in one spiritual book once i read- we can hide from our every action and thought here on physical world. We can deny here in this world even from our own self, what we did. But there in HIS presence, in astral world the soul can deny nothing. She is standing absolute naked in front of the creator. Her nature being the same as Divine Creator, she the drop of Love, can never deny anything. And agrees to every thing she did under influence of mind. Somehow our travel makes us ready for this too. Here we are- unable to deny anything we did or thought. We finally take responsibility of our actions. Unable to put the blame on anyone else. And then we learn to take care for our further thoughts and actions. Wanting only to please HIM we learn to be responsible for our travel and success. This is growth. Isn't it?

One of my absolute favourite is this saying of MASTER-

HE said HE thinks HE shud change the name of our path to Laughing All The Way To Heaven. Sometimes a sentence can struck inside a core. Somewhere it keeps hanging on. We think we are now living that teaching, but suddenly we realise--- there’s miles to go before I sleep, miles to go… and once every often we realise we reached there already. Only we were busy looking towards closed door so intently, that we failed to see the open door.

There are so many changes travelling on spiritual path bestows on us. That it’s hard to list them all. And every soul has her own position, what she needs and what she already has achieved. So we can not generalise any thing.

And yet my favourite is this one---  the opening of heart. Letting go of boundaries and becoming limitless. When we realise that we don’t ever ever need love from others. We stop looking towards others for fulfilling our need of love. Since that immense love is already within us. Suddenly we realise the limitless love for our own self as well as others around us. As the grips of need is loosened, it brings itself immense flood of compassion. For each n every being. For those around us suffering thru their own battles. It may be too late to salvage many things. And yet, the liberating freedom it accompanies. The bitterness dissolved, the hurt and pains of past all gone like a vapour . and the fluidness to accept the circumstances which in future or at every moment are building up to bring more pain. Aah the freedom . it’s then we realise how we were suffering thru our very own closed heart. The boundaries we were following. As RUMI ji said--- our task is not to search for love, but to find boundaries we have put against love. And suddenly we realise what the MYSTICAL teachings behind these sentences were. Not that it ever stops here. Their every sentence carries limitless wisdom. But the joy of experiencing one such wisdom is amazing.

As one MYSTIC said--- what this hullaboo is all about??? J

These are random musings of one such traveller among you all. And transformation that day brought inside this traveller. The freedom and the real definition that I was searching of love , on this physical level is complete. I understood that real love is when we don’t need or want love from others for our self. Rather we have capacity to give unconditional and unreturned love to every one. Without needing anything in return. This traveller is now waiting with love and excitement of learning the truth , the true love, the LOVE beyond physical level. And this traveller realised one more thing… we can really Laugh All The Way To Heaven. Choice is always ours. HE really love it when we laugh and smile. And when we come above theories and prejudices and believes, when we achieve real experience we agree with MYSTICS--- hey what this hullaboo is all about. ? ? ? ?

Peace and bliss to all. May GOD shower experiences on us. J


Main Lajpala de Lar Lagiya, Mere to gum pare rehnde, Meri asha umeeda de sada bootey hare rehnde ....




















Tuesday, July 5, 2011

OH BELOVED !








O BELOVED !!
My heart silently whispered-
Take me in YOUR hands,
Squeeze me dry !
And make every drop of my blood-
Tear drops of my eyes.

Make every drop of tear,
Fall for YOUR love
Let not a single drop,
Go in vain.

Every scar my heart bears,
Every pain my heart suffered
Vipe out every yearning
That was not in YOUR name.

BELOVED whispered back-
How do you know-
The scars your heart bears
The pain your heart suffered,
The yearnings of unfulfilled desires
Was not for ME, from ME ?

How do you know-
I was not there,
Cutting your heart piece by piece,
Letting your blood run free
Washing your heart with MY love?

And suddenly I realised-
Burning in fire of pain,
Everytime I emerged like gold,
More shining, more bright,
With every scar that heart bears,
I shine with BELOVED’S love and light

With every pain and learning to let go,
I become lighter, freer to fly
And with letting go of every scar,
My BELOVED comes more closer to me.

The first step I took away from HIM,
Separating myself and beginning my search,
Has ended now with my heart cut loose,
It’s the journey back to HIM,
It’s the journey that is beautiful,
It’s the journey worth living.

O BELOVED !!
My heart whispered-
YOU truly woo me with intensity,
YOU cut me loose !!!
Only to take me in YOUR arms !!!


-----------------------------------------------   Roohi