A Journey Towards Peace

When you speak and GOD listen's that's prayer,
When GOD speaks and you listen that's meditation.

Since childhood when i used to study in school, almost in every subject one lesson will start with this line or will contain this line- man is a social animal....

How much we depend on what has been taught to us since childhood, as we are shaped to take our place in this world. But how much of this is actually true? Social animal? we are shaped to think such way and results in our being scared of being left alone. All our life we strive hard to never be left alone. we need some one or another or some thing to keep us being left alone. How much energy we spend for not being alone only to realise at some point that actually we are alone. we were thru out life running away from one truth--- we all are alone. The sooner we realise this and become friendly with our own self the better it is, not only spiritually but as a human life too. Becoming our own friend happy in our own company, is called a loner. Another social stigma we fight hard to keep away. While those who know the value of spiritual path will understand the beauty of this-- aloneness...those who remain involved in this world are always afraid of this particular gift from GOD...

SILENCE---

Sannata[ silence] how many poets has written such heart rendering poems on this particular phenomena. some term it spooky, some term it lonely. And almost all try hard never to be in silence. "Sannate ke saay-saay". Even if for this they have to switch on television or i-pods or mp3. And yet how we fail to understand it's the constant chattering of our own thoughts that we try to escape. Our own mind keep going round and round, spinning constant flow of thoughts, constant chattering , never giving up.

How many people now are doing jobs, including females. New area like call centers etc. where there is never a moment of silence. Traffic jams or flowing of traffic ,constant humming of sounds keep flowing. If that is not enuf there are chat rooms available. all sorts of chattering can be done. Just to keep away the silence....

And yet we all keep looking for peace. A moment of peace. Which is always in our hands to claim whenever we want. Coz the journey of peace starts from silence. A much needed beautiful silence. An oasis of peace. which is within us. Within every single one of us. Why are we afraid of silence. Coz we don't know how to stop our own mind from chattering too much. But as the disciple of MASTER, we have been given the instrument which can take us there....to that oasis of peace where silence can be achieved and with this automatically comes --- peace.

With constant outward clammering of sounds and with constant chattering of mind how many times we all have felt stressed out. How many of us have rushed towards stress busting tips and clinics. Evidly following any stress beating article. And yet all of this was always within us, we only had to reach out our hands. With all the stressed out feeling why is it that we still don't understand the value of silence? Coz we haven't yet learned to live in that oasis of peace that silence can bring. With what MASTER has given to us we can beat any clammering on our mind and soul and live in peace, even amidst most humming areas...go on try it for yourself. And built that revered silence around u.

The biggest gift that GOD gives us is the gift of silence. Since from here the journey of peace starts. When a soul starts to value silence more n more... she is becoming ready to listen to her name being called from the lips of GOD. Coz it's in silence GOD speaks to HIS child-- soul.

THE FIRST VIRTUE IS TO RESTRAIN THE TONGUE; HE APPROACHES NEAREST TO THE GODS WHO KNOWS HOW TO BE SILENT, EVEN THOUGH HE IS IN THE RIGHT.
- CATO.

How many times it's becoz of lack of silence that we feel burdened or weight down. Silence not only consistes the surroundings becoming peace ful and silent. With no traffic noices, no babies or kids or wives or spouse yelling, no tv, no music. It also consists inner silence. silencing the thoughts and feelings that arise as results of those thoughts. And there by silencing the tongue which can spew out soo much which may later haunt us. If only we have kept silent. If we analyse ourself we always feel heavey when we needlessly speak. And needlessly hurt some one. But when we remain silent and pass by the moment which cud have turn nasty, we always feel so light. Negative feelings always drain out precious energy and resultant emotions or feelings are never healthy or light. They burden the soul unnecessarily. But being silent never hurts. If we treat silence positively.
There is a quote ---
TRY NOT TO SAY IT. U MAY WANT TO SAY IT, U MITE ACHE TO SAY IT, IT MAY B FUNNY. IT MAY B THE TRUTH. IT MAY B JUSTICE, IT MAY B VENGEANCE. BUT IT WUD STILL BE BETTER TO JUST SHUT UP…


SOLITUDE-

One who values silence then step more closer to one's own company. Which is solitude. When we are not afraid of our own company and prefer to live with our own self. When we are comfortable in our own skin and respect ourselves and our privacy. When words become superfluose not needed. Then we step more closer to GOD. When even with GOD words are not needed. Only sweet contemplation and rememberence, wordless yearning to be with HIM, is enuf, and nothing else is needed...GOD answers to such wordless love. And this can be achieved only thru practising silence and learning to embrace solitude.

This is one poem which i love most. Is my mantra.... sharing here....

Solitude and HIM


S tillness, wherein I rest in Your will

O nly breath and Spirit are my fill.

L onging for You without tongue or word

I n private, where sweet silence is heard.

T ransformed , as You want me to be

U nited for all eternity.

D arkness -I no longer fear

E mbraced by Love's heavenly sphere.

It's so beautiful to cherish silence of mind , thoughts. Ofcourse silence in outer surroundings helps so much more, but for those who learns to value this silence. There are those who loves the hum-bum of big cities and are afraid to survive even couple of days in a very small place - a village etc. They call these places god forsaken places. Where as in truth GOD dwells so much closer here. So we have to learn to love silence of surroundings instead of being afraid of that. And if we have good fortune to be rewarded with such place so much the better. But what good will it do if our thoughts are not silent? If our mind keeps chattering? if instead of our own solitude we still crave for some one's company. It's when we are alone that we learn to feel HIM with us beside us always. When we are looking for some tangible company to keep ourself occupied, and keep our self from feeling lonely...how can we learn to feel HIM beside us, with us, within us. All our energy is being drained in trying not to feel lonely. But even this is not so simple. Try picturing many years of solitude. With none else but u in ur own company. If we still feel unafraid coz we knoe HE is with us...now that is another step in the biggest gift of GOD...from silence to solitude....

STILLNESS-

HOW RARE TO FIND A SOUL STILL ENUF TO HEAR THE GOD SPEAK.
- FRANCOISE DE FENELON

It all leads to stillness. Stillness of thoughts of mind...which in reality is the only thing that keep us away from peace. we our self keep us away from peace. when we will learn this truth, we will stop being our own enemy.
Stillness of constant flow of thoughts and emotions, leads to stillness of desires. And the blissful spark of peace is lit within us. We are now on our way to shed everything and become nothing. We are on our way to finally be receptive enuf to listen to HIM speaking to us.

In a movie a beautiful scene comes, which i m sure many of us loves. Amidst silent scenery a heroine is moving forward and in that spellbounding silence suddenly a loving and spellbounding sound of flute starts breaking, waves upon waves it turns into loving cresendo of music..it's beauty intact in surrounding silence. Coz nothing else, none another sound mars it's beauty.....Making that music complete. To learn to recognise the beauty of any music... we need to silent the surroundings so that nothing else save that music is heard. only then it's beauty envelop us....

And the music within each one of us ..the celestial music is tooo valuable to mar it by our own chattering. To completely immerse the soul in it's beauty..so that it may lead us back home...we need complete silence...complete stillness. only then we can understand our own beauty and GOD's love towards us.. HIS beloved royal blood princess...soul. it's in this stillness we can here HIM calling out to us..whispering our name. First the tiny bit of whisper which will held us spellbound and then full blown orchestra of HIS love.....

We are since ages soooo tired of being with our own never ending round and round thoughts that we don't know how to get rid of this chattering. To keep this chattering away we try hard to be a social animal. Keeping our own stupid mind at bay by drowning our self in various kind of sounds. Sounds of our loved one's or friends or fellow humans..if they are not available then tv, i-pods or any other music. We just keep our thoughts to stop bothering us. And we have forgotten to experience that peace which we crave and yearn for. In fact that peace is the result of stilling our own mind. And fortunately for those who have been lucky one's to have a guiding and loving hand and grace of MASTER, the instrument to find that peace has been handed over to us. And yet since ages we are so much involved in keeping our thoughts at bay that we still keep on going round and round. we still are afraid of that first step of sitting in silence and listening to our own thoughts our own mind chattering away happily as we strive for a glimpse of that elluding peace. That we forget that first step has to be taken. since ages this mind of ours has been left free to spurn thoughts ...now for once we have to sit down and confront finally this stupid mind and with help of our very own GUIDE and MASTER ...we will win this battle...
winning is guarented by none else the GOD HIMSELF..... :)

Journey of peace starts from silence , first step is to gather up courage and sit down with our own mind finally confront it. Instead of keeping on running away from it. And that needs solitude.
Which will one day with HIS help lead us to stillness and the peace with in..... :)

Peace to all...
GOD BLESS

For MASTER

This is a poem written by a disciple for his own MASTER , read in a book. But felt like it's a poem which cudn't be designated as from one specific disciple for one specific MASTER. It's love for MASTER.... so sharing here this poem with all disciples...................


Pyaas aise jag jayegi ye to kabhi socha na tha,
aag aise lag jaayege ye to kabhi socha na tha.

jahan ke har sheh me nazar ataa hai tu he tu,
teri surat aise bus jayege ye to kabhi socha na tha.

main bandaa-ae-bedaam hu margala hai bandagi,
zist aise sadh jaayege ye to kabhi socha na tha.

duniya ke galiyon me tha bhatka main mara mara,
teri premnagariya janch jayege ye to kabhi socha na tha.

na sehar ka hai ehsaas na shab ka pata thekana,
teri masti aise chad jayege ye to kabhi socha na tha.

humne to hansi hansi me yu cheda tha bus UNHE,
baat itne bad jaayege ye to kabhi socha na tha.......





For every disciple who loves MASTER wud know the meaning of this poem...coz when the fire of love for MASTER consumes being.... baat bad he jaati hai. :)

DON’T SACRIFICE-

BAHUT KATIN HAI DAGAR PANGHAT KE-
[ HARD IS THE ROAD BACK TO BELOVED--]

Spiritual growth comes at a very high price. So all of us out there trying to walk the path shud better tie our belts more tightly. As our MASTER tells us- when u are going for fox hunting be prepared as if u are going for lion hunting.

There is still one more thing MASTER tells us- we can’t put both our feets in two boats. We can’t reach any where. Nor in this boat, not in that. Coz both the boats are going in different directions. We have to choose one and then plant both our feets firmly in one boat.

Now there are two choices for us. Those who are manmukh and those who are gurumukh. Manmukh boat leads us to this world. Where we actually are living. With all the everchanging scenario of this world, we try to struggle thru living our life best possible way trying to find what little happiness we can find here. Which is never enuf. As soon as we find happiness thru one thing we need another. And so we keep pursuing happiness which is always elusive. At the very best in the end of our life we may think that I cud have lived better. Which is almost everyone who feels this way in the end. I cud have lived better. If life gives me another chance I will do much better this time. But the question is- will we get that second chance???

Those who belief in reincarnation can still not honestly say will they get this human birth again? Or if they really do get another human birth. They won’t remember the mistakes done in this one..or the last thought of—if I get second chance.

So it’s endless pursuing of that elusive happiness or I cud have done better. Or life cud be better.

But those who are walking on the path of gurumukh. They have the chance to find that forever peace and bliss. Coz they aim to merge in that forever infinity which is all love and happiness. The spiritual path which gives us promise of merging in ultimate creator and never having to run again in this marathon of finding happiness.

So choice is ours. Which path we want to walk? Do we want to give another try to this world. Or do we want to give our best effort to the path of spirituality.

Many souls have tried hard to find the right path which leads back to that entity we call GOD. Many have choosen many paths available. And we who are walking in the guidance of a living MASTER…instinctively feel that we are on the right path. A path which is going to lead us back home. And so we start walking in dubious- can we do this? Let’s try—we do have MASTER’S promise and grace with us, kind of attitude. And yet mostly failing on the way. Stumbling, often giving up and yet not quiet able to leave completely, again picking up kind of way thru years. Honestly hoping to get the glimpse of that spiritual world MASTER tells us about and yet as years pass by loosing hope in our capability which we from the beginning doubted we have and most of the souls end up questioning the validity of path itself. And yet there are those lucky souls which keep silently immersed in HIS love. Always silent never speaking of those valuable treasures that they have found within. If they speak up probably most of us won’t question the path 20 years down the lane. But GOD wants to see our own yearnings. HE can always bestow the treasures in just a blink of a moment. But do we deserve them? Will we be able to understand the value of the treasure given to us. No we can’t.

Saints never became saints in just 2 hours daily. They became saints by being saint 24 hours a day. That is the commitment GOD needs from us. To be HIS completely. Every hour every moment.

As a human beings we have the habit of trying to get that one happiness which has high cost. Most expensive car, most beautiful house, another car another house another latest technological device. We work very hard to achieve them but the day we get them we don’t feel elated for long. Coz we want something more higher yet. We are unable to enjoy the fruits of what we single mindedly wanted and is now finally ours. So how can we change our selves and know the value of treasures that GOD can bestow to us without working hard. We can’t. HE needs to see our single mindedness to achieve HIS everlasting love. So that we can treasure when HE chooses to bestow HIS love on us. We can understand the value of what has been given to us.

HE needs us to plant both our feets firmly on the boat that leads us back home. To HIM. And mostly we go thru life trying to live up to both worlds. This world with it’s present allures which we can see and that one which saints tells us exists, but we haven’t seen it. MASTER tells us- if we can but imagine or see what lies within we will never try to turn our face towards this world ever. But we don’t know that. Do we?


Faith is believing what u don’t yet see and reward is getting what u believed in without seeing.
At the best we can always have faith.

Spiritual growth comes at a very high cost after all it is forever. But we walking on the path tend to overlook the price it asks for. Meditation and going within, withdrawing soul current from body from where it permeates in this world via senses needs high price. Already since this soul came in this world it has acquired the habit of going outwards. Turning that opposite direction current needs huge effort. It also needs many sacrifices. Which we never think about. We only sit down half heartedly in darkened room and tell our MASTER I m not capable, u asked me to make efforts I m doing it. Now it’s upto ur grace. U said if I walk one step u will take 100 towards me. Now take those 100. I m waiting. Open the doors within. So I can taste the glory. Yet we are not ready to pay any price. But we are quick to blame MASTER and the path.

There is a story. One very evolved Mahatma while roaming around reached in a village and decided to stay at a poor woman’s home. Who welcomed mahatma and offered her hospitality. But she didn’t had any food to offer to mahatma in the morning. So whole night she stitched clothes. In the morning she sold those clothes and brought things to prepare meal. Then she cooked food and offered to mahatma. Which he took. That night when he sat down for spiritual practice, he was unable to withdraw his soul current. Though he tried hard. Next morning he asked the woman how she arranged for food. She told him by selling clothes she stitched. He asked when did u stitch ? she told him in the night. And how did u do the work in the night. From where did u arrange the light needed to stitch? Then she told him- in the nearby hut a prostitute lives. As her profession needs lamp for whole night she stitched clothes with the help of her burning lamp. Then mahatma said- becoz of the food prepared in unethical way, I was not able to withdraw my soul current.

If a highly evolved mahatma can suffer via food intake of unethically prepared means. Then how can we expect results? Do we ever think of what spiritual practice needs? The sacrifices it demands? Are we ready to pay them?

We go to MacDonald’s and other such restaurants which prepare non-veg items too. If we see their kitchens we will come to know how much non-veg we consume. And we tell ourselves proudly that we follow the vows of being vegetarian. And that night again we expect results in our meditation.

Whole day going thru our various jobs, we display anger, jealousy and other negative feelings for fellow humans. Hurting many in process. Or getting hurt and becoming abusive, even if in our own mind. Venting our feeling of injustice being done to us. As soon as we do this… we hamper our meditation. How can we expect HIM to shower HIS love that night when we ourself has been bad to our fellow creatures. Isn’t expecting results then from our side becomes hypocrisy?

Once MASTER said that our own mind will tell us daily , do we deserve that treasure of love?
Shud we care to listen to it’s truth. Which we never do. We ignore.

One lustful thought , and do we qualify to hope GOD to be seated in that heart?

To even hope that GOD chooses to show HIS face to us, we need to go thru life long sacrifices. Are we ready to sacrifice and change whole our life and finally put both our feets on one single boat of spirituality? Remember HE has given us means to achieve this. Our meditation is that weapon with the help of which we can achieve this. But we need to put sincere efforts. Our efforts shud be in training our mind to sit and become silent. Not the half hearted efforts of going thru 2 hours daily. But sincere efforts to silence the thoughts, and lovingly gaze at the darkness within. As MASTER said… six months of sincere efforts and the disciple must go within.

Along with these sacrifices which is needed to withdraw the soul current. As the concentration is achieved the disciple must go within.

One spiritual truth and we become afraid. Oh this is some thing I can’t sacrifice. And we start calling it ritual or dogma or blame the path. Coz we are unable to digest the truth that spiritual practice and withdrawal results demands sacrifices. Coz we know we can’t yet give up allures of this world completely.

Human tendency is that at the old age of life when a man is free of most responsibilities he tends to look back towards the life he has lived so far and tell himself he cud have lived better.

Why look back to the road traveled so far. Why not look ahead towards the distance yet needed to be covered. Looking back always makes us stumble in further growth. Why not keep our gaze always fixed ahead?

20 years down the lane…walking thru this path, trying to sacrifice each and every thing that comes between us and the beloved, if we are ready to handle even disappoint if it comes our way…[ though it shudn’t. coz HE knows our sincere efforts. And HE is more anxious to see us within. HE is more then ready , in fact HE is waiting to shower HIS love to a tired soul.] But shud we still remain away from HIS beloved face…then are we ready to take the disappointment? Or will we ask ourselves? I cud atleast have enjoyed the life. Cud have gone to restaurants, cud have taken that extra money, cud have fulfilled this or that desire.

NA KHUDA MILA NA VISAALE SANAM….
If this is where we are going to land…then better don’t make sacrifice. We can always go on living life to fullest and performing the duty of 2 and half hour. But then we shudn’t complain of not getting results. At the very best we can have the satisfaction of living life and doing duty towards HIM too. HE never asked to make sacrifices. It’s our own intellect that tells us oh!! I did this and so I shud get results. Again isn’t this ego??? Who are we to decide that we are right candidates to see results? And we know ego is that one thing which keeps us away from HIM..

Or give our best try..with all the sacrifices this path demands from us. Our best shot…and HE the infinite love is bound to shower HIS grace. But never complaining. Coz as jesus says—I m going to prepare the abode for u. with our best efforts HE is preparing our home coming even if it takes this whole life time. In comparison to millions of years, one life time is nothing.

It's only human nature which asks i did so much for u what u did for me? GOD never asks i did so much for u and yet u complain. what u did for me?? we at some point even don't hesitate to ask our own kids- i did so much for u, what u did? or expect that i did so much they shud do soo much or more in return.

Ultimately this is the path of loving faith. And faith is all that counts in the end.
At the very best we have the satisfaction of lived our life as dignified human beings. Coz that is what this path makes us. And we have the satisfaction of giving our best. And as a reward we will one day get to see what we believed in. The radiant face of our MASTER.

Don’t sacrifice if in the end our ego is going to tell us how much I did for U MASTER. What did U do?

Choice is our’s …do we choose to remain in both boats, or try our best to get on one boat. HIS boat.

CHOICES-

Saints tells us that this life is just a dream. A prewritten play and we are merely acting out what is already written , so in a way, already happened. That our prarabdh this life’s destiny as well as what we will be , what our nature will be are already decided even before our body is decided. Even the hairs on our head, the breaths we are allotted and the morsels we eat are all predestined. So we actually don’t have much choices in our life which we can take on our own. If it’s written that we are supposed to take wrong decision we will take that. So if we really deeply think it over it will be sooo much more easier for us to remain in HIS will. As actually we don’t have any freedom or free will as such. For us walking on the path it’s relief to know that our destiny is in capable hands of our FATHER, our GOD.. though each soul’s destiny is in capable hands of one who is the sanchalak of this world and none has free will, but for us walking on spiritual path we atleast have this knowledge and our own acceptance. So do we have any choices? Actually none… but still as our ego demands us to function at some level, till we are apart in our mind..from HIM… we need to make some choices or act out as if we are making some choices.

We who are walking on this path that we so called “chose”, reminding ourselves that it was HIS calling to us that made us come on this path back to home where our soul actually belongs struggle thru so many choices. And yet often times failing. Once read this wonderful sentence- that when we take those vows necessary to walk on this path, we have no choice but to fulfill them if we want to reach back home. But doesn’t that tells as if we become slaves? And that make our mind revolt. But actually we have choice. If we think positively. Our GOD hasn’t asked us to become slaves. HE has asked to become lovers. As HE is the only true lover who actually loves us. Remaining in HIS will is so much easier if we feel that we are actually making this choice due to love for HIM and love makes everything so easy. This is called active participation in our destiny which HE has so lovingly written for us so that we can finally reach home to HIM. It’s not as if HE has become a dictator and we HIS slaves, with no choice but to follow HIM and feeling negatively ..oh it’s written and so we have to bear it any how… or we can choose it positively oh, my love my BELOVED has decided this so it’s best for me and it’s one step more nearer to HIM…to be finally able to merge in HIM.


It’s said that with every negativity on spiritual path the negative force feeds on our soul. Negative force being kaal who kept our soul imprisoned here in this world for centuries now. Now that we finally have our beloved calling on to us. We can always choose to be positive. This is our first choice that we can make. For HIM……

Then there is question of our vows. That we struggle so hard to keep. Why do we struggle. Coz some where deep inside our mind we feel that this has been forced on us. We don’t actually love those vows, in this world where senses are stimulated thru every media possible. It’s soo much more easier in satyug or dwapar. When they didn’t have so much mediums for sense gratifications. Here in our modern era we have simply tooo much telling our senses that we need this to become happy or lead easy life. It’s so hard to keep holding our selves back from each and every sense gratification.


Let’s for a moment think as those humans who never heard of this path. We have ourselves known love at some point of our life in any form. Be it love for our parents, a lover, brother or sister, or a friend whom we love to distraction. And then there are those love stories which appeals to our loving nature, or the craving of love inside us. And so we watch all those love stories like dilwale dulhaniya le jayenge, kal ho na ho, kuch kuch hota hai. And thus making them block busters. Coz in each human being there beats a heart which craves for such sacrificing and yearning kind of love who wants to win love at any cost, ready to sacrifice so much.

It appeals to our basic nature when we see a triangle in love story. Where one person silently sacrifice his or her love coz the person he or she loves is in deep love with some one else. Content to remain his or her friend in need, a shoulder to lean on. Or a lover leaving his or her home and traveling great distance just to win his or her’s parents approval with good behaviors and sacrifice so that he or she can finally marry the person he or she loves. The story involves some times years of sacrifice and patience. Of silent unacknowledged love. And yet we love those stories. Coz some how some where we crave for same kind of deep commitment. For such deep love that years apart can’t diminish or break.

This is the craving of our soul. And we actually has that kind of lover. Since the day our soul crying came to this world separated from our source our GOD and HE promised to call us back. While we forgot all about HIM as we took company of mind and senses, vaguely feeling an absence, since those eons of years HE never forgot us. And kept loving us. Finding any excuse to bring us back to call us back. Who knows HE actually grabbed first excuse available to call back many of souls. We never deserved this, as we were the one’s who forgot HIM.. not HIM. HE didn’t.

Now that we understood our craving our yearning of that kind of deep committed love is for our source and that source is waiting for us to reach back and merge in HIM.. we can actually choose to be positive about our commitment. Now is the time for actually living one of those love story. And be a part of that love. Experience that deep love and for that choosing to make any sacrifice required.

Now is our time to be a hero or heroine of that love story. Silently choosing to love deeply and wisely.

It won’t matter to HIM if we keep those vows lovingly or pressurized coz we want to taste that spiritual bliss that books tells us, is within us. But it would matter to us. If we choose those vows with love and positivity rather then feeling…oh I have to keep this vow since I promised. It would matter coz then it’s easier to keep those vows and take active participation. There won’t be a moments hesitation when we are called to choose between our vow or sense gratification. Not a single hesitation.

All we have to do is to feel HIS love and then for that love prepare ourselves for any sacrifice demanded. All we have to do is to choose between our love , the little love we feel for HIM bestowed on us by HIM, and rest of the world. And I believe that feeling of even a little love for HIM will always out weigh the rest of the world.


Making active choice to keep those vows, telling ourselves --- I choose to keep those vows. Will help us tremendously with so much postivity that all our energy will feel charged with love to never hamper our choices. Coz that’s how we are made. We can do anything for the choices we make. And go to any length.

So now when we are prepared to make those choices actively it won’t be hard at all to keep those vows.

To choose our vow of never taking any non-veg or alcohol, we become more conscious more vigilant. When it comes to choose between places where non-veg is also served, restaurants where drinks are also served, friends who make or prepare non- veg dishes , using utensils in which non-veg is cooked or simple eating of fruits and dairy products. We will never hesitate to even leave that thing which hampers our vows. There will be no question of choice ..coz where ever our vow is hampered there choice doesn’t exists….

When it comes to ethical earning of our livelihood there will never be a question of choice between..taking unethical money to fulfill the desire of better car, better television or another house or plot, or not having such desires which asks us to go for unethical money. Coz we choose to follow and fulfill our vow.

When it come to the choice of moral living , there won’t ever be question of choice. Or hesitation. Coz we know that true love we already have. In this world there is nothing that can ever compare or come at par to that love. HIS love. For those who have once tried to find this love and failing they won’t ever want to try here again. Coz they already know the futility. Those living with a partner and yet feeling deep loneliness already knows that this loneliness is to be cherished as it will take the soul more closer to HIM…choosing consciously to find that everlasting love and merging in this love will never let the question of moral living arise.

And last and not the least choosing to remain in memory or remembrance of HIS love contemplating in lover’s form , choosing to remain in loved one’s company is something which every lover knows how to do or rather is the only thing which a lover wants to do. We all know how beautiful it is to live even in the memory of person whom we love. Remaining alone in solitude and going thru loved one’s memory again and again and again… is some thing every lover knows how to do or what pleasure this can bring or yearning it can bring to be near our loved one again. If we can just change this pleasure and this yearning for one true love…all our wanderings in search for that elusive happiness is over. Coz with each day…with our little shaky efforts to be near HIM to feel that pleasure for HIM or yearning for HIM…we actually come near HIM… though we may not know it now. One day we will….

So now is the time for being that hero or heroine in that love story of that movie which we once loved which told us the years of patient waiting for loved one. For sacrifices made for loved one. Even without ever hope for belonging to that loved one yet going on loving and loving and loving. To become that heer or ranjha, laila or majnu , shiri or farhaad , romeo or Juliet or even raaj or simran…

That is all meditation is. That is all those hours means. Sitting in the dark. Waiting for lover to appear, sometimes feeling HIS presence feeding thru little memory HE choose to bestow on us. Some times bringing pleasure sitting in that dark room and some time bringing deep yearning to once just once see HIS beloved face. And some times feeling even HIS apparent “bedardi” as nothing happens. That is all meditation is…our time to live that love story. Only the reward is faaar greater and certain… as there is no failure in this love story and no sad ending.


Peace to all....

LOVING HIM :)

Many times this question arises in the mind of spiritual seekers, how best to love GOD..or beloved? Though who are we to love HIM. for HE is the lover who lits the fire in the heart of whom HE seeks…to love.

Came across a very interesting theory of TAO…so sharing here…in my own words. So I beg forgiveness for any mistake commited…

Philosophical thinkers tells us that inside every male there is a female side and inside every female there is a male sides… so brush up ur female sides. And in any case soul is considered as female lover and GOD male…soul is considered married when she is merged with her husband- PARAMATMA..

Here is how a soul can learn to merge in her beloved and find eternal love according to Tao theory..

RECEPTIVITY- females are considered receptive. They are empty inside waiting to be filled. Females takes while males are givers..They are like a hole waiting to be filled.
GOD is a giver. HE is constantly giving only soul is not yet receptive enough. Become like a female who is waiting constantly to receive what ever GOD chooses to bestow.

WAITING- when a female loves she waits without becoming aggresive. She constantly and lovingly waits for some one she loves. She won’t argue. she will just wait…
When the soul is a seeker of that eternal truth, becoming immersed in arguments with GOD…constantly trying to out judge HIM about ur own progress and arguing over why u r worthy to receive HIS love…instead be like a female. Waiting lovingly for beloved to bestow HIS love. Humble and waiting….like a lover waiting on the door for beloved to arrive. Yearning yet loving. Imagine a nagging wife who is waiting for husband to reach home while he is being late. No…that won’t do with our BELOVED… be like a heer who is waiting yearningly for her ranjha to arrive…
Completely finish urself, let not a single line remain and then there is no limit to ur winnings…

LOOSING- Laotse says when a man thinks about woman he thinks with the emotion of winning her. How to win her love. While when a woman thinks about a man she thinks with wanting to loose herself.. how to be wined over by him, her man. She takes pleasure in loosing not winning. To win HIS love a soul has to learn to loose herself. And HIS love is her’s . it’s the art of loosing that wins the heart of beloved.

TIME- for a man loving comes last. He considers other works more important. He feels that finishing those works..his job, his meetings his projects.. those comes first. Now this is universal truth and every woman can vote for this. Males thinks that if time permits after doing all these important jobs, then he can indulge in love. But females they consider loving their top most priority, everything else is secondry. Their only complain from their partner is lack of time for being with each other. While GOD the eternal beloved loves time given to HIM.. spent in HIS company and remembrance. Male when they love someone even then their eyes seeks other beauty, while female once love a male will never think of looking at anything. Females are then considered possessive. And yet this is what HE asks for. Complete possessiveness. Complete devotion with exclution of every other thought.
So be like a female ..and love HIM with complete possessiveness and devotion. Giving HIM all the time… and HE will never say like all those males when they are faced with this possessiveness or demand for time and their attention…that I can not always remain with u.. no..instead GOD will love the soul only for this more and more…
Ohh!! What a relief.. for females can now have the one true lover they always seek,…. :)
There is a wonderful quote- “love becomes complete when the prayer becomes saturated with love. And for this time is needed.”

SILENCE- if we see two lovers together, we will find males talking much and female listening contentedly. [we are not talking about married couple][ that’s a joke]
A female lover loves to listen to her lover talking . though she can talk so much which man comes to know after marriage. But a lover knows how to remain silent. She loves his voice. And they remain silent… silence is one thing where the soul can hear her beloved’s call.
There is a quote—“there are only very few soul’s who are fortunate enough to know how to be still enuf to hear GOD talk."
We all know that merging in GOD we need to practice silence. To let go our ego which generates thoughts. And never let us hear HIS voice. For HE will speak when we are ready to hear HIM.. not before. So be like that “ preyasi” who loves to hear her lover talk. And sit silently to hear his voice.

BECOME A SLAVE [ SURRENDER] - females call themselves “ daasi” and actually becomes the queen of lover’s heart becoz of her surrender. She completely surrender herself to her lover. All he says and do is right. She has no will or need of her own. She is happy with what ever her lover thinks and do for her. In fact she waits very patiently and lovingly for her lover to come up with a surprise to make her happy. And with such a lover her beloved wants to surprise her just to see har face lit up with happiness coz he knows whatever he will do for his lover..she will be filled with loving pleasure.
Imagine the soul’s beloved arrested in her love so much that to see her happy the beloved can go to any length. Imagine that wonderful stage of love. And that can come thru complete surrender coz when the soul will always feel pleasure in what ever her beloved chooses to bestow..the beloved feels compelled to see her happy. In fact HE still is waiting desperately to make HIS beloved" us” happy…only we never learn to surrender our own definition of what can make us happy. A true lover always knows instinctively what will make his beloved flush with happiness. And who else can be called true lover then HIM???
Females never feel small in surrendering their own self to the one they love. Be it husband or kids. They can make sacrifices for her loved ones happiness. And so learn from females to happily make sacrifices for beloved. “No price is too big to win HIS love”.

NO DISTINCTION[ ABHED] –
“ niyaaze ishq k eek aise bhi manzil hai,
jaha hai shukar shikayat kisi ko kya maloom.”
Prayer is demand or thanks. Don’t make ur love a prayer. Coz it is filled with either demand or thanks for things bestowed by beloved. Thanks becomes a formality. Which says…yes u have given me a lott. But tells that it is not accepted by heart and mind.
There is a wonderful story.
When Keshavchand became disciple of Ramchandra and started walking on spiritual path. One day Ramchandra asked him” how do u pray to GOD? What is ur method. Keshavchand replied I say thanks to GOD for giving me this path which I never deserved. Ramchandra became disappointed. And said these words..” u say thanks to GOD!!!! ?? if HE hasn’t given u eyes wud u then have said thanks? No u wudn’t have. Whatever GOD has given to u for which u say thanks . had HE not given to u then to whom u wud have said thanks??”

Saying thanks is also a way of complain. It’s enough that u r in front of HIM.. first stop demanding. For what do u say thanks? Everything is HIS so who are u to say thanks? If one hand gets hurt and other hand puts medicine ..will one hand give thanks to other? For taking care of it? Both are same ..so where are thanks here? Soul is just a drop of same ocean. When soul thinks with her ego she becomes separate when actually only HE is everywhere. There is no division.who says thanks to whom?
When love becomes deeper..lovers become one, merges in each other. GOD and soul becomes one. There is left not enuf space to distinct them from each other…
“ I am HE”
then there is not even space left to say thanks.

COMMITMENT- When a female loves she starts thinking about getting married while males start thinking about how best to avoid commitment. Loving HIM needs the commitment of female. As soul prepares herself to get married to her beloved and ways to woo HIM to make that commitment to become one. Become like that female who is constantly thinking of nothing else but how to make beloved commit HIS love for herself..only..for all eternity. Coz earthly relation may skip or break commitment. But HE if makes a commitment of love..it is for all eternity. HIS love is our’s for all eternity. Oh what a relief. :)

In the end here is a quote from one of our MASTER—
When man and woman starts walking the path in the beginning woman gets success more easily. Becoz they know how to love and love deeply. So they become successful. But after some time man gains more on path becoz they know how to stick to commitment while woman’s attention gets scattered with many attachment she carries.

These are not actual words. But meaning is safe.

A woman becomes wife and mother and daughter … and divides herself in many attachment , to nourish each relation. But man can stay at a time attached to one only.

So it’s for the soul to decide where to become a female and when to take up male tendencies….
Females out there wanting to walk the path brush up ur female tendencies, and males out there walking on the path take out the female side sleeping inside u.
Biggest example we can find is the great lover and mystic Bullehshah. Who for beloved became such a lover that HE wasn't afraid of HIS own female side. Infact HE was complete lover.
coz no price is too high and no way is too big to win HIS love.....

:)

peace and bliss to all

Lovers and Love

"Love". Everyone is fimiliar with this word. Some believe in it some don't. But as manmukh humans we try to find this phenomena in this world. Some succeeding, while some failing. And yet those who succeed find themselves alone at some point of relationship. And this Saints tells us is the lonliness of soul looking for that one true love.. the creator. This lonliness is indication of the soul telling mind that it needs to go back. It's not happy here. Mind as usual trying to find pleasure and happiness in this world according to the dictates of senses , keeps ignoring the indications. And keep trying to find that one love in this world of maya.

Untill one fine day some lucky ones meet the perfect MASTER. :) And their search for love is over. If they can just understand this. That search is over. Many still never realise this. But many do with HIS love and grace. :)

We are not capable of loving HIM. It's HIS love which pulls us, and we think we love HIM.. In fact it's HE who is loving us, and pulling us back home. So today i sat down and thought about lovers... or so called lovers of MASTER, when in fact every where HE himself is the lover loving HIMSELF thru us. Still in my human mind the thought arise and with my limited human capabilities i picked out three kind of lovers... or the soul in love..or the human beings initiated by perfect MASTER starting or walking on the path of one true love that leads the soul to it's royal palace, a place of love, peace and bliss. :)

We all at some point of time have experienced love, and are aware of the high and low feelings love can bring. New love - u want to stand on the roof top and shout so that whole world can hear u are in love. The bubbly kind of new love starting , new feelings, new happiness. And that's how the first kind of lovers are. They are those who can't stop talking about their own feelings. Any thing new and they want to shout it out. " ishq de naviyo navi bahar"[ the new happiness of love].
These types of lovers are on first stage of love and are unable to digest any thing. But the love is not deep down absorbed yet. Attention is still wondering in the world. It's like putting feets in two boats. One is the love of world and senses and the other is love of path. The feeling of attainable goal of the world beyond imagination, that MASTER has promised. Yet not commited completely. Believing perhaps that the day they will really set their mind to achieve this goal, they will achieve it easily. difficulties they read are for others. Their love is strong enuf to overcome and they can achieve. Till then their mind is still pulled towards the happiness this world can perhaps still offer. :)

second kind of lovers are silent one. They have crossed the naviyo navi bahar stage. They have travelled and know how hard it is to seek beloved inside. They have the look of yearning lovers. Who have lost interest in this world, and yet are unable to hold beloved within. They are now silent. Coz no word can explain what they are feeling. They are sometimes at peace and sometimes in agony. They are preparing for union. coz they now know the seperation. :)
ofcourse to reach this stage u are meditating and finding hard to hold on to that stillness which can bring beloved in focus. So to reach here meditation.... as usual is must. :)

Then there are third kind. Fortunately for this little soul she has seen these one's too. She has seen the look that she is now describing ...on their beloved faces. These are completely silent. They don't ever utter single unnecessary word, and yet their whole body speaks. :)
On their face is undescribable peace. Their eyes have a look as if they are constantly beholding the" Beloved's face". They are with beloved and beloved is their constant companion. Their face holds a loving smile. As if all they can see is beloved. They have this dreamy look as if they are somewhere else. Only body is performing the karmas... their soul is completely with ...HIM.. :)
"Apne chehre ka noor he bus tum le jaoge." U'll only take with u the light of ur face...
Their faces have that light. :) Yes...they are the one's with successful meditation behind them. They have well travelled the road and reached the destination. They have made sure their human birth is not wasted. They have achieved love..and they are ..... lovers... :)

Ofcourse their are those too who gets initiation from perfect MASTER and forget about one promise they made..finding every excuse available for not being able to sit. But then they forget that if they won't start walking on the road.. they won't reach destination..not in this life. To go thru and reach to the third kind of lover's stage... we are suppose to start travelling. And believe me the third kind of lovers faces says all... makes u want to rush and reach there. To have that Noor on our own face...that contentment and peace ....in our soul..and that loving gaze..which seems to be continuosly beholding the face of beloved, HIS loving gaze. That look in eyes..says all. It's to be experienced . not just keep reading but reaching there and taste that bliss reflected on those faces. Just to be able to taste that once, to have that love and light on ur own soul...reflected on ur own face... For just once....
Give me the pain of ur love,
nothing but the pain of ur love,
and i'll gladly give anything in return.

So travellers...start travelling and travel well... For who knows when beloved will show mercy and reveal HIMSELF to us...Be sure to be waiting for that moment...And not waste it while sleeping or finding excuses. Coz love after all is the only thing worth having ....And that too of......HIS love.. :)

LIP SERVICE----

What kind of spiritual path followers we are? What kind of ? we are those fortunate once who knows how to behave and who have the guidance of good behavior. So do we follow those guidelines?
Being new on the path it fascinated me to see fellow travellers behaving in one set way, speaking in a set way. It was gentle, humble and calm way. And I used to feel the need to be one of those calm, humble and gentle people. Gradually I tried to find the depth of reality of that behavior. And what good place to start then your own heart.
Our MASTER tells us that if a child doesn’t behave properly the blame goes to upbringing of parents. And so HIS follower we shud behave in a way that people feels the need to ask…who is your FATHER?
And so we religiously try to behave properly. But what if one day we stop and realize that it was merely a lip service? Lip service- said from lips but not actually implemented or believed by heart.
Some of very set words that we all speak- do we really follow them? We say – every thing is HIS will , but then we forget this as soon as we try to make some major decision in our life. Business dealings, job change, place change, home change school change for kids…any decision we take we are sometimes far apart from this fact that every thing is predestined. We are just playing out a pre written drama. And here we forget the words we use while speaking to other fellow travellers—every thing is HIS will. But yes, we do remember it when some thing wrong happens in our life and we need an explanation. Then we realize it’s HIS will and we can comfortably put the blame on HIM…
We always use sentences like …we are nothing..we don’t exist only HE exists. Yet this is what we forget most of the time. If we really don’t exist then so doesn’t our ego. The same ego which keeps us functioning in this world and thus keeps us away from HIM…reaching HIM inside. So how can we use these sentences? We exist…and till we exist we don’t reach HIM, and till we don’t reach HIM are we not being hypocrites when we say- we don’t exist? Why do we use these sentences when we know they are still far from reality? We bow down and humbly welcome anyone at our home or when we meet we greet each other …and yet our heart and mind is busy finding fault and judging the same person whom we are greeting?
We have been so many times told by our GUIDE and MASTER to be humble and yet do we actually follow HIM? From deep down our heart? Once I read a very interesting quote. Here it is…
“Humility, then, is not a matter of beating ourselves up. It is not a question of judging ourselves as stupid or sinful, as hopeless and bad. Who are we to judge these things? Humility, is the gentle acceptance of that most tender place inside ourselves that throbs with the pain of separation from the Beloved. It is that deep knowingness that identification with the false self brings nothing but further separation. It is an initially reluctant dropping down into the emptiness and an ultimate experience of peace when we stop doing and rediscover simple being. It is the Sabbath of the soul when we heed the call to cease creating and remember that we are created. "
---- St John
our mind gathers information. Reading all those books our MASTER lovingly provided us and listening to HIS satsangs..HIS words. Watching HIM behave in life. And we aspire to become the same that HE set an example to or asks us to do. Yet our heart remains the same. Behaving in predictable human ways. It's like gaining knowledge and not really letting it sink in.
We believe ourselves to have surrendered all to our MASTER and we believe ourselves that we are living in HIS will. And yet our heart complains of so many things. I should have more money , earning it should be easy enuf for me to find time for meditation. And yet the life is so miserably hectic I can’t find time for one thing and that is meditation. Can we really find guts enuf to really surrender? HE says all ur worries are ur MASTER’s worries and ur cares are HIS. So give it all to HIM, and u be carefree enuf to just do one thing. Meditation… and we don’t have that guts. We are indispensable. Our life and responsibilities, our job and house work will all fall apart if we don’t keep an eye or lend a hand. We don’t have that guts to really surrender all. How can we then remainwhat we know our self to be???—a big ego???
Something didn’t happen according to our carefully laid plan…and we loose even that amount of surrender that we believe our self to have made to our MASTER… so do we actually qualify to use these remarks? As a genuine spiritual path traveller?
Living in HIS will means complete surrender of ego…and we can count those in fingers who can actually boast of having lost ego. Not all of us can. And then saying things like this becomes hypocrisy. Living in HIS will also means, actively participating. Not just saying it’s HIS will when misfortunes fall upon us. But actually rejoicing in HIS any kind of gift. Be it fortune or misfortune.
Can we actually leave everything in HIS capable hands and just do one thing with our life? Meditation? we meet each other and ask are u doing it? it's so hard to sit , it's so hard to find time. And we comfort ourself from the knowledge that others are incapable too. We are not the only one neglecting most important part of our life. Instead we shud all gather up and encourage each other. go on do it...it's the only thing worth doing in life. For HE can take care of everything else.
so next time before we use any such hypocratical sentence , boosting our ego..that over inflated part of our existence...and believe ourself to be geniuinly good follower...we shoul ask ourself is it true??? or are we just misleading ourself to be a good follower. yes, we should behave as our MASTER asked us to do...but then it should be from bottom of our heart. and this can only come via one way. as our MASTER promised us. that if we meditate we will ourself find changes in us. from milk butter will come up automatically... and good qualities inside us will come up automatically. only then we can call ourself ..."Honest".
Spirituality is a way of life. Not merely in thoughts. It is a reflection of qualities that GOD admire most. And we can fool ourself but we can never fool HIM.. HE knows how much we are faking. Coz HE is sitting there listening to our each and every thought. Even before we can become aware of them...
" Dil ka hujra saaf kar janaa ke aaney ke liye" [ clean ur hearts and minds before u can welcome HIM inside. Coz the place where HE is to be seated should be neat and clean. ]Best wishes to all of us on the path to be geniuine followers and not to do just lip service. So that we can finally welcome our BELOVED to come and grace us with HIS loving presence...
Peace to all. :)

To MASTER With Love

MASTER................................
The moment these words comes in mind, the mind and soul feels a feeling of recognition, of love and peace. A feeling of belongingness. Soul's feeling of finally about to reach home. To HIS arms. Of finally being able to put your head down and just rest. And how near that rest is. As near as our own breath. All we have to do is close our eyes. And there it is , in this darkness there is rest. coz even our mind recognise HIS presence there in this darkness. So who says that only when we see the light we reach home or to HIM. HE is never far. just shutting your eyes away. And that's a relief coz this we can carry with us everywhere. Not like any statue...we can carry our own ocean of peace with us always. As it's constantly present within us. With HIM, :)

Why not just stop seeking anything at all? and just rest. When we need rest at home we close our lights and stay in darkened room. So why we keep constantly asking ?? when we will see light?
As humans we are fashioned to seek result. And for millions of years we are doing just that. Mind needs to see results. And we don't know how to live the moment. Many quotes says... happiness is in this moment. And we keep looking for happiness to arrive. never recognising that we are living it...and we keep waiting. This is how we take our meditation. we never learn to enjoy it. never learn to rest our tired mind and body in that stilling darkness, and keep waiting for light to appear. Becoming discouraged as it doesn't. Never recognising that here it is...in this darkness ..our chance to rest in HIS divine presence. Even that is a peace. After all we do know we are going home.
We shud learn to rest...finally after a tiring day, doing all the jobs that doen't belong to us.. we shud just learn to let go and just....REST..in that darkness with HIM...
MASTER....................

oh!!! what a wonderful word....

my MASTER........ :)

~Let Me See You Lord~

Let Me See You Lord
Not things you perform
Not bright shiny packages
Not things that adorn

Let me see you Lord
In wonder I sing
Power and majesty
All Praise to my King

Let me see you Lord
In large things and small
In life as I journey
You won’t let me fall

As I stubbornly flounder
Through daily to do’s
Without thought or humility
To request help from You
Who is constantly with me
If I acknowledge or not
You are faithfully present
To author my thoughts
Of Your spirit within me
Which desires to please
My omnipotent Father
I bow down on my knees
To have fellowship with You
As I offer my praise
And commune with my Father
The Ancient of Days
You delight in my presence
You desire my heart
You are saddened each morning
As I thoughtlessly start
Without seeking Your guidance
And the favor You yearn
To give of so freely
In Your bosom it burns
You are gentle and patient
As You sadly observe
My self centered attempt
To dispense with Your word
As I walk out the door
Once again I neglect
To commune with my Father
To take time to reflect

How I want to see You Lord
Nothing else takes Your place
I am useless and futile
Save Your presence and grace

Once again Lord forgive me
For being so self absorbed
To neglect our communion
And miss the reward
Of Your presence so caring
Of Your fragrance so sweet
As I daily step into Your plan
so complete
That You fashioned it perfectly
Before I was born
Every intricate detail
Every life vessel formed
Every path I’m to follow
Every step I’m to take
To prevail through the journey
To run the good race

Lord I shant disappoint You
I will ride with You now
On Your white horse behind you
As Your bride show me how
As I asked, seeked, and knocked
You were true to Your word
You were anxious to guide me
As I listened and heard
From You Father who wakens
The still early morn
As I rest in Your presence
I’m entreated to turn
To my Father who’s faithful
To direct all my ways
If I’m faithful to seek him
At the dawn of my days.

And yet we neglect to do one and only thing HE asks...to meditate..and to be with HIM for HE is seeking our company more then we are seeking HIM...

for HE is the seeker and we think we are seeking HIM...

keep looking for HIM with HIM.. :)

Because you loved me...

For all the times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful for you
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through
through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark
shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place
because of you
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me"
I'm Everything I Am~
Because You Loved Me "

when everything else fails in this world my MASTER helds me up so that i can still reach HIM..

when i lost my faith it was HE who kept holding me.....

Make me reach my special cloud again

Just one more mountain God,
is this just one more mountain I must climb?
Or is it my last?
I must confess, it looks so high.........
Not sure if I can climb this one,
this time.
I'm really afraid
but that is just between you and I.
I couldn't say that to anyone else.
I feel tears in my eyes,
tears in my heart.
Looking back I've had so much.
I am thankful.
Never fully appreciating.....
God, is this just one more mountain to climb?
Or is it my last?
Are you going to give me
the strength and courageI need
to reach the top this time?
I've lived, I've cried,
I've laughed,I've loved
but I feel like I have so much more
that I want to do in my life.
God, is this just one more mountain to climb?
Or is it my last?
Please I want so much to reach the peak again.
I want to float on my own special cloud again.
I've so much more laughter,
so much more passionfor life.
So much more love to give.
Please God,
the tears are beginning to well up in me now.
Is this just one more mountain to climb?
Or is it my last?

Reaching you my MASTER is my special cloud...

every time my heart asks when there is a mountain to climb..is it my last???
but with u holding my hands..
i can climb any mountain..my MASTER....

HIS WILL

Sometimes I ask the question,
"My Lord, is this your will?"
It's then I hear you answer me,
"My Precious Child... be still.

"Sometimes I feel frustrated,
cause I think I know what's best.
It's then I hear you say to me,
"My Busy Child... just rest

"Sometimes I feel so lonely
and I think I'd like a mate.
Your still small voice gets oh so clear
and says, "My Child... please wait"

"I know the plans I have for you,
the wondrous things you'll see;
If you can just be patient,
Child,and put your trust in me.

I've plans to draw you closer.
I've plans to help you grow.
There's much I do you cannot see
and much you do not know.

But know this, Child .....
I LOVE YOU.
You are Precious unto Me.
Before I formed you in the womb,
I planned your destiny.
I've something very special
I hope for you to learn.
The gifts I wish to give to you
are gifts you cannot earn.
They come without a price tag,
but not without a cost;
Rest Child, and do not weary
of doing what is good.
I promise I'll come back for you
just like I said I would.
Your name is written on my palm,
I never could forget;
Therefore, do not be discouraged
when my answer is... "Not Yet"

How can we know HIS will? we can not. But only truth is...HE knows best. and we go on asking what we feel is best for us. never understanding the value of each and every moment that HE gives is for our best. In pain HE is wiping off our karmas. In happiness HE laughs with us. HE doesn't feel HIS own happiness and pain. HIS happiness is with us being happy. and HE cries when we are in pain. so where are we alone... no where. since HE is always with us...loving us as no one else can ever love us...weak beings though we are....HE still loves us will all our sordidness...only HE is capable of accepting us as we are...no one else is capable of doing this..
NONE...

HEAL MY PAIN

HEALED AND WHOLE

One day I dug a little hole
And put my hurt inside
I thought that I could just forget
I'd put it there to hide.
But that little hurt began to grow
I covered it every day
I couldn't leave it and go on
It seemed the price I had to pay.
My joy was gone,
my heart was sad
Pain was all I knew.
My wounded soul enveloped me
Loving seemed too hard to do.
One day, while standing by my hole
I cried to God above
And said, "If You are really there --
They say, You're a God of Love!"
And just like that --
He was right there
And just put His arms around me
He wiped my tears,
His hurting child
There was no safer place to be.
I told Him all about my hurt
I opened up my heart
He listened to each and every word
To every sordid part.
I dug down deep
and let got my hurt
I brushed the dirt away
And placed it in my MASTER's hand
And healing came that day.
He took the blackness of my soul
And set my spirit FREE!
Something beautiful began to grow
Where the hurt used to be.
And when I look at what has grown
Out of my tears and pain
I remember every day
to give my hurts to Him
And never bury them again.........

Transition period of the soul -- ROOHI

Transitions in life,
are now taking form,
But what I feel,
is that I am torn.


In different directions,
of where to turn.
Not knowing really,
what I truly yearn.
Guidance is what,
I ask for now.
For I know in my heart,
that somehow.
I'll receive a sign,
to settle my fear.
Lighting my path
to bring me nearer.


To understand
whyI'm changing direction.
Letting go of my past,
making new connections.
Transitions from old,
into what's new.
Is a road travelled,
by very few.
But I am inspired
to travel down.
Not even knowing
what will be found.
And once the changes
have taken place.


And I am alone,
left to face.
Challenges leading,
on a new course.
Will push onward,
with a powerful force.
I trust I'll be shown,
as time goes by.
The answers
andthe reasons why.
My thirst and hunger,
will not cease.
As my soul searches
for inner peace.
But for now I see,
and also know.
Transitions in life,
help my spirit grow.

And.......It really helps the soul to grow...the transition period, as the soul turns away from world and faces it's MASTER.... the transition...at once painful and freedom....too...
Transition...every soul must go thru...
and then there is no turning back....

Silent Voice

I have a picture of you in the corner stone of my mind.
Fresh
I have a memory of you all the time..
Peace
The sun shines through my window pane,
and wakes me up to another blessed day.
Joy
I am walking outside,
close to the water,
and see the waves moving my way.
Satisfaction
I see someone walking with beautiful locs,
luminous smile..
You As the sunsets and the wind blows,
on my skin,
I feel you touching me from miles away..
Your Aura
Your encounter, brightens my heart,
makes me smile,
and feel like I can be me,
no matter what side of the bed I woke up on.
Love
I see me looking into your eyes,
and us having a conversation,
with no verbals being spoken.
Freedom
This is freedom....

JOURNEY OF A LOST SOUL- ROOHI

Slowly step by step
i came closer to HIM,
slowly step by step
i became aware of HIM.
i asked HIM to love me,
HE told me
HE already do,
i askedHIM,
make me fall in love with U
I hardly knowU
then how can i love U
HE opened the door,
and asked me to feed inside.
I looked inside
only to find nothing
Icried in the darkness
how can i love U?
when i don't knowU.
HE gave me eyes
to see
HE gave me ears
to listen
and said-
come fall in love
I am waiting for u here.
when u are satisfied be mine,
I'LL show u the path and lead u
I'LL make u fall in love too.
but these eyes find nothing
nearer to your image
i cried,
HE told me u'll understand

when you'll love me and me only
I'LL take your love completely,

and my soul's journey on the path of love,
as this soul finds new ways to
love HIM daily
the journey commense.

The day will come
i'll finally arrive
to learn to love HIM completely.
the day will come,
when HIS love is all there will be
and i'll be completely HIS.....

FOR MASTER WITH LOVE---

ek subah jab main aankhe kholu,
us din sawera ho jaaye,
ek subah jab main saans lu,
us din purwai beh jaaye.
ek subah jab main jaagu,
us din pankh mere faile ho,
ek subah jab pankh failau,
us din gagan swagat me ho,
ek subah teri baanhe,
or un baanho me main hu,
ek subah ye sunder andhkar,
tere noor se roshan ho,
ek subah main tujhme hu,
or tum bus mujhme ho.

-------------------------------------ROOHI

FOR MY MASTER WITH LOVE----


hum kitne chote hai,

tumhare samaksh,

apni abhilashao or akaanshao ke saath.

hum kitne chote hai,

tumhare samaksh,

apni uljhano or dar ke saath.

hum kitne chote hai,

tumhare samaksh,

apni pyaar ke paribhashao ke saath.

raasto ke talash me,

manzil ka pataa dhundte,

andhero me bhatakte,

ujaalo ke talaash me,

hum kitne chote hai,

tumhare samaksh,

apni banayi paristithiyo ke saath.

chal to pade hai,

tumhare saath me,

apne nahi tumhare pyaar ke wishwas ke saath.

hum kitne chote hai,

tumhare samaksh,

ab bhi apne he nishkarsho ke saath.

dayaro me bandhe,

asmaan ke talaash me,

zameen se bandhe,

par udaan ke talaash me,

shabdo se bandhe,

par khamoshi ke talaash me,

bandhano me bandhe,

par pankh ke talaash me,

chal to pade hai,

tumhare saath,

tumhare he diye wishwaas ke saath.

hum kitne chote hai,

tumhare samaksh,

par tum ho jab saath,

hum kaha chote hai

"zindagi" ke samaksh,

tere hote hum hai samarth

------------------------------------Roohi

What keeps us alive,
what allows us to endure?
I think it is the hope of loving,
or being loved.
I heard a fable once
about the sun going on a journey
to find its source,
and how the moon wept
without her lover’swarm gaze.
We weep when light does not reach our hearts.
We witherlike fields
if someone close
does not rain their kindness upon us.

Love Poems From God” by Daniel Ladinsky

Roohi's comment---

And this is why we search for love. When all this time this love is always nearer to us then our own breath. In form of GOD's love...in our own heart. The heart of soul. Which is not in chest. but between two eyes. And here the eternal and true love resides. And we weep for we try to find this love outside. But tears shed for HIS love while it resides inside us...are more worthy. Coz these tears take us to HIM...
And it's HIS gaze..HIS inner gaze that keeps us spellbound. It's this kindness that soul craves for...

Since childhood i used to crave for something , not knowing what ? used to talk to GOD. " in conversation with God".

Believeing HE hears every little petty stupid ramblings of my mind. I tried to compose love poems and eventually forgot all about them as life took over. The day i found them again i realised that even then my soul was calling out to one true love of my soul... My MASTER. even then without knowing all my wait was for HIM. But when HE finally arrived in my life, i was very skeptical. What to do with this new turn of my life. I yearned and cried for HIM to hold my hands , never believing honestly that HE will. But HE did.. i promised to do every thing HE asked. And when HE entered in my life i turned away to live my life. with this nagging something always in my mind... i promised, i promised.

HE waited calmly. And again took me in HIS arms as a butterfly lay shattered. Gave new wings to fly... towards ultimate love. HIS love.

Only HIS love is, nothing else is.

As this soul turned towards HIM finally, many things started making sense in this otherwise senseless world. And started understanding what this Path is about , where it leads. Still can't believe what was given to this soul and this soul never understood it's worth. But that was a phase of karmas to burn out. Every thing is perfect. HIS way of working, HIS every action in our life is so perfect. Some times i feel deep sense of laughter bubbling out of me, to see HIS perfection.

Spirituality --- the path that chose me, :) is a path of perfection and love. And MY MASTER for me is that thread that keeps the stitched cloth holding together from falling apart in this otherwise senseless stage of drama. If this thread is not there, every thing falls apart. But mercifully this thread is always there, always exists, hidden from our view.

As my soul whispers - MASTER.... a deep sense of peace and stillness and love bubbles up, surrounds me and emmeresed in this well being and bliss .. this soul carries on journey towrads Home and HIM. :)

I first saw HIS dear face in the magazine . and was facinated with HIS eyes. Then read the book "Atmaa ka safar"[ the journey of a soul]

and when asked about my view on this book... i uttered these words to my amazement- "i m a marked soul. "

The moment these words were out for me my destiny was sealed with HIM. Though it was sealed much much before . Before i took this birth. But that day i invited HIM. HE accepted. :)

Exactly 2 years before i wasn't aware of HIS existence on this earth. HE was for me some where deep inside my heart .. to talk to but never expecting any answer back. And exactly 2 years after, today i can't even think of existing without HIM, and i expect every answer coming my way... and they do... :)

On this blog this soul will share not intellectual talks or preachings, i m incapable of this. this soul will share "JUST EHSAAS"... ONLY FEELINGS....

The heart which is capable of so many feelings, is filled with feelings meant only for my MASTER... and my believe is that a heart which beats for HIS love, is making best of it's every beat.

So here after this brief post about this soul's journey towards it's MASTER... this soul will just share feelings worthy for HIM..

 MY GOD....:)