BOWING TO ONLY – THE ONE –

These words were since long, in my heart. Some what harsh reality. For ages, kept them within. But may be we should face reality now.

It’s a very famous saying – Mera sir jhuke toh bus TERE aagey jhuke. If my head bows, may it bow only in front of YOU, and none else. In human world commonly we take this as a meaning – that, we should never need to bow our head as a beggar, in front of anyone, other then GOD. What ever we need, we should only ask HIM. And none else. Though not something we follow. Not in any way.

What i understood about spirituality is –( Apart from -- GOD exists) - That if one soul is faithful to only one single power. And meditate upon that power. That soul/human can win favorable place in that power’s/deity’s heart. It is called – siddhi hona... to win a deity. But this only happens, when one is faithful to one power. We can see it in this way, that one is practicing and practicing one piece of Harmony. On any Musical Instrument. How ever difficult that piece is. And then one day one becomes perfect adept of that particular piece of Harmony. Or in more spiritual term – trying and trying to attune our own frequency to one particular level of Vibration or Energy. And finally succeeding. But then as the rule says – we try to attune to one single frequency.

Mostly our tendency is – worship this deity and then this one too, and then that one too. The more deities one’s religion prescribes. More bewildered the soul is – so the worship becomes, either need based. Or festival based. If one needs special solution to special problem. One worships, the deity, who has been assigned power to that particular area. Like the power on clouds/water has been assigned to a deity called Indra. Mostly we follow—religious days. Monday is day of this deity, Tuesday that... Holi we worship this deity and Diwali – that. And so on..

And thus instead of bowing down to THE ONE. We keep bowing to everyone. And winning favour of no one. We are so accustomed to worshiping – as following norms of our religion. That we don’t even bother to pause and think--- why are we worshiping. And whom ?

And this is not the problem of following one specific religion, but almost every single one.

Before PERFECT MASTER comes in our life, we worship, or bow down to practically every deity or power, that we consider above us. Or spiritual. But then we are not aware of reality then. Though it is still a setback for Soul. Irony is - when HE comes in our life. We still can not stop bowing down to these powers. And that – is REALLY PATHETIC.

When after fasting whole day – ( even if our heart never stops to ask this – what kind of FATHER needs HIS child to remain hungry ? ) we are breaking our fast – by offering worship to either MOON, SUN OR STARS, or even any other Deity. Why our heart never ask us – why are we bowing down to lesser powers, when we have HIM in our life ? We know places of these powers now. HE told us... Didn’t HE ?? Still why our heart never whispers – whom are we betraying ?? A wife serving many men betrays her one husband. We call HIM our BELOVED. Who should own our whole and sole... and yet here we are – Betraying HIM. And despite calling ourselves HIS followers. HIS children or even Satsangi... we proudly demonstrate our bowing down to other deities to everyone. Belittling HIS Love.

In one of question and answer session – once HE even did, one thing HE never ever do. One child when asked – what if every one denies doing Sewa ? How will the work be done then ? HE said – 33 million deities are standing in wait to perform Sewa... Do we need more proof ? Then a LIVING BREATHING MASTER Speaking ??

ISLAM talks about only ONE ALLAH – Coz only HE exists. CHRIST calls HIM – ONE FATHER. Coz only HE exists. GURU GRANTH SAHIB calls HIM – ONE WAHEGURU, coz only HE exists. Vedas calls HIM – ONE PARBRAHMA, coz only HE exists.. It’s all HIS names. We divide HIM, according to names.

Now if we apply spiritual rules, and attune ourselves and our frequency to only one Vibration --- HIM... instead of other lesser vibrations... We know what we achieve.

So next time, despite having HIM in our life, when we bow down to other lesser powers or Deities. And proudly start demonstrating this in our friend and relation circle. Or even on platform of social media... let’s ask ourselves – what are we doing ? And whom are we betraying. If we have family members, who don’t yet understand that HE is one and above all powers, and follow lesser Deities. To keep family Harmony, we might need to go along. Still inside our heart only HE can exist. But if all of us belong to Sant Mat. Then what excuse do we have ?? To still run behind this Mata, and that Deity ?? Or even worshiping Moon and Stars !!!!! Why after having HIM in our lives we stoop so low ?? What are we afraid of !!!

Let us do real Fast – From Vices, from Illusion, from cravings of world. Let us Sacrifice – our Ego. And let us offer most precious thing in this creation – our soul’s DEVOTION – to that one and only --- THE ONE.

कही और ना सजदा गवारा, असा तो तेन्नु रब्ब मनया।

I can’t even bear to Bow down to anyone else anymore – other then YOU...
My BELOVED, i know and believe... That YOU are the only GOD...
YOU are the only GOD for me...

PEACE AND BLISS -- Roohi 

JOURNEY OF SOUL - GOD REALIZATION

Har Ek Rooh pyaasi, Har Ek dil swali. Every soul is thirsty and each heart is asking the question about BELOVED... Only where to look ? is the question. Whose right answer is hard to receive. Otherwise look at all those Satsangs. Look at all those religious or spiritual channels. And we will see huge crowd gathering to listen. To something.... Even they don’t know what.... But all they feel is this thirst. And so every one is gathered around some kind of satsang or another. Do we receive true answers ?? It is up to us to investigate.

Since ages, many believed that the stage of “AHUM BRAHMASMI “ depicted in Vedas, is the highest stage. That achieved, the soul has achieved Union with Brahma, understood own self – “Self Realization”, and reached ultimate abode. There are many, who still consider it the ultimate aim to be achieved. Ashrams, through out India are overflowing with aspirants wanting to reach this stage. But PERFECT MASTERS tells us the different story. THEY all tell us, that the knowledge given in Vedas, can not go beyond. Beyond, where the birth of Vedas took place. SWAMI JI MAHARAJ, even goes on to say – Vedas were born inside Third Realm. And all they can do is – tell us, what are the rules that bound all three realms. And according to those rules, how can we live a best life. Those who have knowledge goes on to say – That the Image one sees inside three realms, which makes one believe that they have reached stage of “ AHUM BRAHMASMI” “I am that Brahma/i am the creator” Is a mirage or illusion, shown by mind itself. Since soul hasn’t yet got rid of mind. A mind being the projector. Easily projects one more illusion.

Then comes – “SO AHUM “ or “SOHAM”. Which means – “That which the creator is, i am that”. Seems just like a different way of saying- Ahum Brahmasmi. But if we look closely – it still depicts – Duality. Since even in words there are two. HIM, and i. What ever HE is, i am that too. Simple logic. The soul hasn’t yet reached. In Sar Bachan SWAMI JI MAHARAJ gives us the stage where Soul receives this experience. Just before forth realm, is the real AMRITSAR/ MANSAROVER. When the soul takes bath in it. Mind and it’s vices are shed. As soul becomes free of mind, and stands there in her full glory. She realizes that she is of same essence as GOD is. In fact it is there she understand what she is. Here the true love and yearning for BELOVED is born. Till here what ever love or yearning we feel. Is creation of mind. And thus subject to ups and downs. It is near this AMRITSAR soul realizes... “SO AHUM/ SOHAM “. But this still is not the real GOD REALIZATION...

We hear the story of MANSOOR – AL- HALLAJ. HE while in the Meditative Glory of union with BELOVED uttered the words --- “I AM TRUTH” ( “I AM GOD”) ( ANA- L- HAQQ )  And those who heard HIM saying thus – immediately felt that HE committed worst kind of sin. It was because of these words. That HE was sentenced to death. A very gruesome death.  Tortured and decapitated. Though in BOOK OF MIRDAD, it is said--- that the only “I” that truely exists is the “I “ of GOD. So this “I “ is worthy. And later RUMI ji said --- Those who do not utter these words. Are true KAAFIRS.( not true Muslim. Muslim means – one who has taken refuge in GOD ) They are Kaafir, because that means, they haven’t done anything to realize THE TRUTH. Which is the real and soul purpose/ religion of soul.

So above Ahum Brahmasmi or Soham, this is the destination of soul – I AM TRUTH....... In fact it is still more further. Calling out I AM TRUTH .... feels like there is still some thing left.... For there can’t be anything left to say. Sometimes i feel... real destination could be – when as MASTER says --- Goongey ka Guud. A sweet eaten by one who can not speak. No words remaining. There is nothing to describe. For words are too small. That the destination is --- when soul becomes silent. Too full, or too complete to speak...

AND OF COURSE THIS KNOWLEDGE AND THIS STAGE CAN BE ACHIEVED THRU PERFECT LIVING MASTER. AND HIS GRACE, CAN AND WILL TAKE US.... TO THAT ULTIMATE REALIZATION.

May we reach... that kind of GOD REALIZATION soon. AMEN...

Peace And Bliss -- 

KEEP FAITH INTACT ...

This post was long overdue. 

For last so many years. Things one don’t want to hear, let alone read, keeps crossing our path. And the hardest one is to bear, when something is said about our MASTER. HE may smile and say, that it doesn’t bother HIM. And it is not going to make a difference what other’s think about HIM, or the  bad things they may be saying about HIM.

But it matters to us. And sometimes things become hard to bear. Some of the things said or written are hard enough and our faith shakes.

HE keeps saying, that don’t worry. Our faiths are always shaky till the time we don’t reach our inner MASTER.

First question we should ask ourselves... why our faith needs confirmations from outer sources ? We are so habitual in seeking every confirmation from outer sources.  Even the confirmation for our very own existence has to come from others. We are so habitual, that even for our faith we need others opinions and outer confirmations. That’s the reason for our love for SAAKHIS and stories of Miracles of MASTERS.

But then recently i came across an article, or shall i say a complete book. Which goes on to destroy the faith on inner MASTER’s existence. Coz that one is supposedly written by one who has numerous inner experiences. He was betrayed by his own MASTER. And even though in inner journeys his inner MASTER was with him. Now he goes on to say... that everything inside is also mind’s projection. And so no one needs MASTER. Since we have many spiritually advanced souls guiding us. And anyways, whatever we see inside is also at the very best, projections of our mind.

A real hard hit....

He doesn’t stop there. He goes on to study many Surat Shabad Yog MASTERS. And one by one dismiss them all frauds ... based on his own, very strong logic. He admits that GOD exists. But, not a single MASTER has monopoly over HIM. And they even mite be misleading us. And we don’t need MASTERS to reach GOD. For HE HIMSELF will guide us inside and guide us to reach HIM...

And so on...

His logic are so sound. That it can make anyone pause. Then there are sites like... Church of the churchless and David Lane books and many sites offers his essays about PERFECT MASTERS. Not always good, coz many are against MASTER too.

Internet has become a strange place. We don’t always get the knowledge we seek or what we want to read. For we may get some damaging stuff too.

And many a times i had chance to communicate fellow disciples, who stumble across these things and feel bewildered.

Justified...

For we are not yet at that level where we can protect our fragile faiths. We are still struggling in dark. And no light is visible in near parts of our spiritual horizon.

But then, we can think about just few little things....

Let me start with BABA FAQIR CHAND JI’S proclamations.  Which earned huge respect from intellectuals, and left many other simpletons bewildered. Bewildered enough to leave the path altogether.

I too faced that problem. I was very novice. New in spirituality. It wasn’t even my own chosen path. The path just sprung and grasped me. I wasn’t even sure i wanted any part in it. I was still struggling with worldly desires, their fulfillment and pains of unfulfilled ones. And there it was.... A shock !! Is my MASTER lying to me??? Suffering thru huge setback in my worldly life, this shock made me stagger soooo much, that keeping my mental balance became hardest job...

But now i understood HIS truth as well as my MASTER’S truth... Mind you... this all is my understanding and my believes. But may be it just mite help someone out there.

There are two ways of telling truth... one is gentle and one is to shake someone in hearing the truth... A rude awakening... Mostly in this world, most people prefer truth served gently. And some of the things belong to highly intellectual people or very advanced souls.

BABA FAQIR JI was right in what HE said... But so is my MASTER. Only THEIR ways of serving the truth is different.

Most of the SANTMAT MASTER’S prefer gentle way of delivering truth. And they leave those parts unsaid... which are not necessary for our mind to grasp. Not until we are very advanced in our spiritual evolution. And by then words are no longer necessary. It is up to us, that what way we want our truth to be served. And as many left path altogether after BABA FAQIR CHAND ji’s claims... figures that most of us want gentle awakenings. And that too is justified. For we are jostled way to much in our worldly dealings... who wants path to our GOD also be filled with rude awakenings only ??

The Santmat MASTERS, not only uses gentle way. But they also uses the power of suggestion’s power very wisely. Let us understand this with very well known analogy.

We know that snakes are poisonous. And this fact affects us soooo much, that when a not poisonous snake bites us. We die. Just becoz we believe we have poison in our body.

There was an interesting article some where, which i read long ago. In Africa there is a tribe which believes in Omens. One of the Omen, a site of particular bird or something is said to be indication of approaching death of the watcher. They believe in this omen so much that if some one is unfortunate enough to catch a glimpse of this particular Omen. He just lay down in his hut. And die. Medically there is nothing at all wrong with their body. They may be healthiest person alive. And yet they just die. It’s the power of suggestion to mind. Which creates a believe sooo strong. That death becomes  inevitable.  

So this is the kind of entity our mind is...

And Santmat MASTERS use this power for THEIR disciples benefit so beautifully. That only a MASTER can do so...

Let us consider few principles or theories or as these critics fondly call it.. Dogmas of Santmat.

We are told that after initiation MASTER places HIS radiant form inside us. Or more specifically third eye center. And when ever we reach there we will find HIM there, ready to guide us thru various spiritual realms.

We when starting the path somehow mistake this with the idea of the same physical MASTER getting inside our third eye center. Physically impossible. It’s the Audible Life Stream that takes the same form, in which we put our faith. And that is the reason uninitiated too sometimes catch a glimpse of HIS form inside. Coz they have faith ... and did HE ever lied to us.... never ever... HE never said “ I will be standing there ”. HE always said... Shabad or radiant MASTER... even KULMALIK... HE told us that much truth we needed to hear. Rest all is intellectual’s needs. And most of us when ever we reach MASTER’S fold are at starting point. And as we don’t do our spiritual practices , meditation... we die at that starting point.. ( forgive the need to depict it as starting point... coz i don’t believe we remain at starting point. Once we reach MASTER, even if don’t meditate, but we do keep changing inside.. )( starting point here means at the understanding level of this birth outside) And so most of us, don’t need more explanations, other then HE provides.

Ultimately HE is using HIS physical form to instill that kind of faith in us... which creates enough believe and enough love inside us... that Shabad is forced to perform Miracles.... we may attribute them to physical MASTER, or Shabad- the true MASTER. But as we can always see... HE never takes the credits. Always asks us to thank GOD... or SATGURU. But never uses—the word—I or ME.

HE always said... it’s Shabad which will take us back home... HE uses SATGURU for HIS own MASTER. Or even the true MASTER- SHABAD. It is we who in our mind attribute this to our physical MASTER.

In HIS criticism it is said – that Santmat MASTERS take the whole credit of taking a soul back home. As if no one else can. Or as if soul herself can not reach on her own. Well, the truth is that soul can not reach with her own help. She needs help of GOD/ SHABAD/ OR SHABAD MASTER.

HE never said anything else. HE is saying the same thing over and over again. Never took credit. And if in some any veiled way we felt HIM to agreeing... let us ask --- did that harm us ?? or did that help in strengthening  our faith ?

If it strengthened, then what’s wrong ??  After all spiritual growth is the story of faith only. It is love and faith which is going to extract us from worldly attachments and force us to walk towards our creator.

And that is what HE is trying to achieve.

Then sometimes we read criticism about Sewa !! For GOD’S sake..... who can criticize that !!. Doing some community service is advisable trait of society. This point is not even worth discussing... Dogma indeed !!

Does Sachkhand exists ? are there really so many realms ? do we need help to reach anywhere ?

DOES IT MATTER ??

At the level where we exist. Nothing is sure. Life is uncertain and so is our every breath. There is nothing in this whole universe which is certain. And plus, we ourselves with our minds can never completely understand everything. Let alone spiritual scriptures. If and when we reach inner spiritual realms. This fact is for sure – we can not judge rite from wrong, real from unreal even there.

Ask any so called mentally ill person. Who sees hallucinations. Or the one who see imaginary friends. Ask them that whatever they see is it real or unreal ? they will convincingly tell us that what they see is 100% real.

While MYSTICS tell us, that this world is unreal. We too are convinced it is real. So whose mind is playing trick ? we can never reach the rite answers on our own. Can we ? if we are blessed with intellect. The very best thing we can do, we can explain mind with the help of mind. And that is what we keep doing on our own.

And anyways. Look at us. In this world, we are always afraid of being alone. To save us from being alone, we keep looking for any partner. Even end up adjusting with wrong one. If we are lost in forest. And someone comes to us, saying – i know the way. Won’t we just crave his company ? won’t we just tag along ?

So what about spiritual realms? Where we don’t know anything. Can’t even understand what is trick of mind and what is real. In that spiritual jungle. If someone offers us, to give HIS company. What’s wrong in that ?

And if that SOMEONE is, the best example of best human being... why can’t we trust HIM then ?

There is so much that can be said. But once i, who wasn’t even on spiritual path by then... concluded somewhere – If a person is doing only good. And no harm... then this person deserves our faith or applause. He even deserves to be followed.

MASTER, at the very best can be described as an enigma. But i have learned this much --- Let others keep saying whatever they feel like. Let them ....

None of us have authority over the projections of our minds. We can keep playing intellectual games. And it will still leave us not wiser. Coz ultimately it is the faculty of soul, which can understand right from wrong. Not mind. Mind can keep us hanging like a yo-yo. 

It is our need to stop depending on outer sources. Stop looking for Saakhis Or stories of Miracles. To build our faith. And start listening to our instincts. Which comes from soul..

And my instinct says.... I don't know if Sachkhand exists or not... But my MASTER says so. It doesn't even matter. Till HE exists in our life. sachkhand is there, with us, with HIM... 
HE is best example in this world full of deceit. And my soul responds positively to HIS every gesture. And THAT... IS ENOUGH FOR ME..

I no longer need Saakhis, or question and answer sessions records. And i no longer search for other words.. HIS are always enough... 

All i can advice for those who stumble across such sites and words... Stop looking towards outer sources. And let's do what HE advice... go within.. 

And till we can not do that... just remember .... the love of soul and yearning to reach BELOVED is enough... Even if it was a misfortune of some soul to come across some MASTER, who betrayed her.... Still her love and HIS grace will some day help her reach the right one... 

Till then just keep the fire of love burning...

Peace and Bliss to all.. 

Roohi..

  

MASTER IS ONE

MASTER IS ONE --

I am always amazed with this kind of thinking. My MASTER and your MASTER..
It even leads to --- Mine is greater then your's.
HE is trying hard to get us out of limited perspectives, and broaden our horizon of thinking and being. And yet here we are...
Still thinking on these points... I am following this path and you are following that path..
We all are following only one path... and that is to reach our ONE CREATOR. Period...
Nothing more and nothing less...

HUZUR used to teach us -- that who ever is teaching the inner path to GOD, is at least pointing in right direction. HE also used to say -- that the one who is teaching us inner path.. is for now, definitely above us. Coz we have yet to begin. My MASTER... ( i use my... as my loving right to call my BELOVED mine... and not to differentiate my or your's MASTER. ) at every step taught me that every one is entitled to our respect... nothing less then that. HE teaches this with HIS own behavior. HE visits so many MYSTICS and SADHUS... About whom we talk -- that they are not PERFECT MASTERS. They are just inside Triloki and so on and on... And HE regardless of our opinions, visits many...

How do i know my MASTER is perfect ?? Have i seen it with my own eyes... sitting HIM on throne of Sachkhand ?? Just as SANT KABIR ji predicts that one day we will see our MASTER sitting there... if HE is perfect...
Naahhh... I haven't yet. And yet i believe HIM...
and so does every disciple believes in his/her MASTER. And yet, none of us has the actual knowledge. It is the love of soul, that counts...

And here we are...
We have divided GOD into.. ALLAH, PARMATMA GOD FATHER etc etc.
And now we are trying to divide HIM further into my MASTER and your MASTER..
And yet... HE is one.... HE is just light and celestial sound. That is HIS only true form.

It hurts to see even Radhasoami Faith being divided into... Dayalbagh Beas Tarantaran Swomibagh etc etc.... And i have personally seen Disciples arguing about which is authentic or which is greater. I have even read books regarding putting other faith down... This is the story of one Faith ... leave apart others... Sahib Bandagi... SMCH Isha .. Radhasoami and so on and on and on...

Why are we doing this ??? It is ok to feel Love for one particular form of MASTER, the one who has initiated us... After all the power of suggestion is helping us overcome mind and have that faith which will help us on our journey... But then to limit ourselves in loving one form and disrespecting other forms !!!

It is not in our power to judge who is true MASTER. who is False. And who has reached where... We need only remember this --- we haven't yet reached any where...

And --- one who is in love with BELOVED... is in love with HIS every part.... who has time to think... HE is only lovable in one form ?? Just Love HIM....
And if we can't yet love HIM in every form... coz we haven't yet reached HIS true formless form... then at least respect each form.... That is the least we can do....

We don't know if my MASTER is greater then your MASTER smile emoticon
But we can remember this --- that MASTER .... has taken many forms... with only one goal... to take HIS souls back home... And though that form which initiates us is supposed to be dearest to us... ... for we are dependent on forms...... yet, HIS other forms are loveliest too... coz in every form, using many mouths... HE is teaching.. one and same thing... and that is... how to love HIM. smile emoticon

AT LEAST MY MASTER HAS TAUGHT ME THIS ... 

Peace And Bliss --- Roohi 

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Why Physical Darshan Of MASTER Is Necessary ?

Somehow, I have started writing about what I am learning while walking on my Path...

Last year my mother was diagnosed with Breast Cancer. It fall on my shoulder to take care Post Operation. Taking care meant --- Busy days. With sundays busy too. I could neither find time to attend Sunday Satsangs. Nor could ask. Because that would mean leaving her totally alone at home. I was supposed to take care. Not leave her alone. So i couldn't ask for some time to go and attend Satsang.

Forth sunday I was returning back. Going towards my own home. Which takes almost 16 hours journey by road. I was thirsty for satsang.  Since it was four weeks without listening one. Finally through MASTER'S GRACE. I was fortunate enough to attend one, in the middle of journey.

But that got me thinking.... On our own, we can never feel this thirst for Satsang. It is so easy, to be devoured by worldly hum drums. And ignore the thirst of soul. Which we are already very apt at. If the thirst arises inside us, for spiritual elixir. That is only because of HIS Grace.

And that holds true for HIS physical darshan as well.

Since i am now learning first hand about the need of that too. Last visit to my DIVINE HOME ON EARTH... Where my MASTER gives discourses, was more the one and half year ago. And that visit left me too disappointed. It's not easy for soul's like me, to visit Dera very often. And when we get opportunity, once in a year or sometimes more... Our heart wishes for best possible Darshan.

Though now i do think... that till the time i am not capable of Real Darshan... HE won't be giving me any...
Mujhe Darshan Karna Nahi ayaa, Toh WO Darshan Dene Nahi Aaye...
Since i haven't yet learned how to do Darshan, So HE till now haven't given me any...


But anyways... after such a long time... going there and watching HIM on TV screen , that too from Far... left me cranky. And i asked HIM... that if doesn't think it fit to give me real darshan then better not call me... till i am worthy....

And here i am... More then one and half year has passed. I am unable to go to Dera...

Once my MASTER'S MASTER was asked... that when the time comes to leave Dera we feel so sad. To leave and venture out in world again. HE advised...  make that place Dera where we live.. Further more ... HE advised to create Dera inside our heart.

I took HIS advise and tried my best to live my life as if i am constantly living in Dera. tried to make my heart where HE resides...

Still after this much time, i now feel strongly, that even after trying our best to live life as HE is always present. We still need to have HIS physical Darshan. Because no matter how hard we try and live our lives as if we are continuously in HIS presence. But the fact remains... that we are still not elevated enough to see HIM, around us, inside us. And even if world holds no more interest in our hearts. Still world manages to sap our energy. There comes a time... that BELOVED seems toooo far, and holding on to HIS imaginary presence becomes hard.

MYSTICS say that in the physical presence of PERFECT MASTER, We receive the benefit of some spiritual rays. Something passes between soul and MASTER.
I don't have that experience. But i do realize now...
That even if watching HIM from far, or on TV screen .... But being in HIS presence does helps in some very subtle way .... which helps us  to keep living life when we are living in world and going thru our responsibilities. In what way. That i have no idea. But yes... it helps....

I won't say that in the long months of absence of HIS physical presence has helped materialism to take hold over me yet again. Though that possibility always remains. But it has left my heart and soul more cranky. And depleted my energy level to such extent, that living daily life has become a hard to dispense course.

Something does happens... which helps soul to keep going thru Karmas and yet remain secure in HIS love.... when we receive HIS Physical Darshan. May be being in HIS presence is enough. Till the time, we are really capable of having HIS Darshan.

And the HE keeps saying... that if HE gives Darshan it can be saat samander paar. HE will cross seven oceans to grant Darshan ...

For all these years of being in HIS Physical Presence.... sometime from near and mostly from very far.... I do know this much ...
I wasn't ready. And though HE may be standing in front of me...
But i never had HIS darshan...
Since i have no idea... how to do Darshan...

Though still my heart wishes... that now when i am in HIS Physical Presence ... It will be the opportunity my soul waited for, since billions and billions of Kalpas... And may i really have HIS Darshan. This time.

Yet, i am honest enough to admit.... We all need to be in HIS Physical Presence...
As SANT KABIR JI says...
Go and have MASTER'S darshan, many times a day,
If you can't do that for many times a day.. Then have at least once... If you can't have atleast once a day, Then go for once a week. If that is not possible, then for atleast once in fifteen days. If even that is not possible then once in a month. If that is not possible then once in six months. And if even that is not possible then atleast once a year...
After that... even if that is not possible... then be ashamed for not finding, even this much time.
I used to think that these words are more appropriate for inner Darshan.
But they are as much necessary for outer too.

Because in some way or another. Soul does start feeling ..... something amiss ... and .... the remedy lies in being in HIS Presence...
And nothing else can help....

 Nothing...

PEACE AND BLISS TO ALL
Roohi ....

MIRACLE

MIRACLE....
So many of us... thru the journey of life, have felt the need for Miracle. One, or may be at times, many Miracles. None of us, i can safely say, is unaware of this need.
I too have once yearned for Miracle. So i understand the feeling.
When my first born son got very sick. And doctors were unable to diagnose his problem. As he lay in my arms, his small body jerking with Seizures. I came to know he suffered Meningitis. Doctors in AIIMS told me... that the diagnose was so late that already his many brain cells were dead. He lost his power to swallow. SO will be on drip for whole his life... If he lived. If he lived he will become vegetable... for whole his life... That he was one brave soul. That even strong grown ups succumb to this much pain within 48 hours. And he was already fighting this pain since 72 hours. For first time in my whole life..... I understood the yearning for just one miracle. Just one... One that will save his life... I remember that whole night. With his small body in my laps... i prayed to every Deity i can remember. And desperately hoped for One single Miracle.... For you see.... I believed in Miracle...
No HE was not in my life then.. I wasn't aware of HIS existence on earth till then.
I was angry.. when my first born died ... Yet, as some cosmic joke... i still kept believing in Miracles...

I have learned so much in my life...
Most of all...
I have seen and become aware of cosmic plan going on without my consent, interference and as per it's own planning. Made me realize first hand.. nothing is in my hand. Cosmic plan is not bothered about if i am ready or not. Cosmic plan is least bothered about my acceptance or lack of it. It doesn't care about my participation or not... if it requires me to participate... I WILL.
I have seen smallest scene being played out and became aware.. i was always too small even to stop that particular SMALLEST event. Let alone big or huge ones. Makes me sooo dispensable... Just a speck of dirt in huge cosmic drama... A dent on EGO ??

But to day.... i am again in need of Miracle... And believe me... the stakes this time are higher. For it doesn't concern any worldly boon or desire... For this is concerned with BELOVED HIMSELF.. And as i have experienced the yearning for JUST ONE MIRACLE... first hand. So i think i know this feeling very well...
Once someone... told me... Any desire related to HIM .... HE always fulfills. Today same words were echoed by one more of HIS beloved child. I do believe in signs ....
But this time my heart quivers.... For the need is tooo high. Even higher then wanting my first born son to live... And i am scared... for i am still human after all ..... Still in grip of mind after all....
A soul has walked a long way .... and a tired soul needs this rest in BELOVED'S arms... in HIS company. For rest of time.... Forever....
Only this much Miracle is needed. From that ONE POWER... who has all the power...
AND...
MY MOMENT OF MIRACLE IS WAITING...

Peace And Bliss to All.. Roohi