Why Physical Darshan Of MASTER Is Necessary ?

Somehow, I have started writing about what I am learning while walking on my Path...

Last year my mother was diagnosed with Breast Cancer. It fall on my shoulder to take care Post Operation. Taking care meant --- Busy days. With sundays busy too. I could neither find time to attend Sunday Satsangs. Nor could ask. Because that would mean leaving her totally alone at home. I was supposed to take care. Not leave her alone. So i couldn't ask for some time to go and attend Satsang.

Forth sunday I was returning back. Going towards my own home. Which takes almost 16 hours journey by road. I was thirsty for satsang.  Since it was four weeks without listening one. Finally through MASTER'S GRACE. I was fortunate enough to attend one, in the middle of journey.

But that got me thinking.... On our own, we can never feel this thirst for Satsang. It is so easy, to be devoured by worldly hum drums. And ignore the thirst of soul. Which we are already very apt at. If the thirst arises inside us, for spiritual elixir. That is only because of HIS Grace.

And that holds true for HIS physical darshan as well.

Since i am now learning first hand about the need of that too. Last visit to my DIVINE HOME ON EARTH... Where my MASTER gives discourses, was more the one and half year ago. And that visit left me too disappointed. It's not easy for soul's like me, to visit Dera very often. And when we get opportunity, once in a year or sometimes more... Our heart wishes for best possible Darshan.

Though now i do think... that till the time i am not capable of Real Darshan... HE won't be giving me any...
Mujhe Darshan Karna Nahi ayaa, Toh WO Darshan Dene Nahi Aaye...
Since i haven't yet learned how to do Darshan, So HE till now haven't given me any...


But anyways... after such a long time... going there and watching HIM on TV screen , that too from Far... left me cranky. And i asked HIM... that if doesn't think it fit to give me real darshan then better not call me... till i am worthy....

And here i am... More then one and half year has passed. I am unable to go to Dera...

Once my MASTER'S MASTER was asked... that when the time comes to leave Dera we feel so sad. To leave and venture out in world again. HE advised...  make that place Dera where we live.. Further more ... HE advised to create Dera inside our heart.

I took HIS advise and tried my best to live my life as if i am constantly living in Dera. tried to make my heart where HE resides...

Still after this much time, i now feel strongly, that even after trying our best to live life as HE is always present. We still need to have HIS physical Darshan. Because no matter how hard we try and live our lives as if we are continuously in HIS presence. But the fact remains... that we are still not elevated enough to see HIM, around us, inside us. And even if world holds no more interest in our hearts. Still world manages to sap our energy. There comes a time... that BELOVED seems toooo far, and holding on to HIS imaginary presence becomes hard.

MYSTICS say that in the physical presence of PERFECT MASTER, We receive the benefit of some spiritual rays. Something passes between soul and MASTER.
I don't have that experience. But i do realize now...
That even if watching HIM from far, or on TV screen .... But being in HIS presence does helps in some very subtle way .... which helps us  to keep living life when we are living in world and going thru our responsibilities. In what way. That i have no idea. But yes... it helps....

I won't say that in the long months of absence of HIS physical presence has helped materialism to take hold over me yet again. Though that possibility always remains. But it has left my heart and soul more cranky. And depleted my energy level to such extent, that living daily life has become a hard to dispense course.

Something does happens... which helps soul to keep going thru Karmas and yet remain secure in HIS love.... when we receive HIS Physical Darshan. May be being in HIS presence is enough. Till the time, we are really capable of having HIS Darshan.

And the HE keeps saying... that if HE gives Darshan it can be saat samander paar. HE will cross seven oceans to grant Darshan ...

For all these years of being in HIS Physical Presence.... sometime from near and mostly from very far.... I do know this much ...
I wasn't ready. And though HE may be standing in front of me...
But i never had HIS darshan...
Since i have no idea... how to do Darshan...

Though still my heart wishes... that now when i am in HIS Physical Presence ... It will be the opportunity my soul waited for, since billions and billions of Kalpas... And may i really have HIS Darshan. This time.

Yet, i am honest enough to admit.... We all need to be in HIS Physical Presence...
As SANT KABIR JI says...
Go and have MASTER'S darshan, many times a day,
If you can't do that for many times a day.. Then have at least once... If you can't have atleast once a day, Then go for once a week. If that is not possible, then for atleast once in fifteen days. If even that is not possible then once in a month. If that is not possible then once in six months. And if even that is not possible then atleast once a year...
After that... even if that is not possible... then be ashamed for not finding, even this much time.
I used to think that these words are more appropriate for inner Darshan.
But they are as much necessary for outer too.

Because in some way or another. Soul does start feeling ..... something amiss ... and .... the remedy lies in being in HIS Presence...
And nothing else can help....

 Nothing...

PEACE AND BLISS TO ALL
Roohi ....