Tuesday, July 28, 2009

CHOICES-

Saints tells us that this life is just a dream. A prewritten play and we are merely acting out what is already written , so in a way, already happened. That our prarabdh this life’s destiny as well as what we will be , what our nature will be are already decided even before our body is decided. Even the hairs on our head, the breaths we are allotted and the morsels we eat are all predestined. So we actually don’t have much choices in our life which we can take on our own. If it’s written that we are supposed to take wrong decision we will take that. So if we really deeply think it over it will be sooo much more easier for us to remain in HIS will. As actually we don’t have any freedom or free will as such. For us walking on the path it’s relief to know that our destiny is in capable hands of our FATHER, our GOD.. though each soul’s destiny is in capable hands of one who is the sanchalak of this world and none has free will, but for us walking on spiritual path we atleast have this knowledge and our own acceptance. So do we have any choices? Actually none… but still as our ego demands us to function at some level, till we are apart in our mind..from HIM… we need to make some choices or act out as if we are making some choices.

We who are walking on this path that we so called “chose”, reminding ourselves that it was HIS calling to us that made us come on this path back to home where our soul actually belongs struggle thru so many choices. And yet often times failing. Once read this wonderful sentence- that when we take those vows necessary to walk on this path, we have no choice but to fulfill them if we want to reach back home. But doesn’t that tells as if we become slaves? And that make our mind revolt. But actually we have choice. If we think positively. Our GOD hasn’t asked us to become slaves. HE has asked to become lovers. As HE is the only true lover who actually loves us. Remaining in HIS will is so much easier if we feel that we are actually making this choice due to love for HIM and love makes everything so easy. This is called active participation in our destiny which HE has so lovingly written for us so that we can finally reach home to HIM. It’s not as if HE has become a dictator and we HIS slaves, with no choice but to follow HIM and feeling negatively ..oh it’s written and so we have to bear it any how… or we can choose it positively oh, my love my BELOVED has decided this so it’s best for me and it’s one step more nearer to HIM…to be finally able to merge in HIM.


It’s said that with every negativity on spiritual path the negative force feeds on our soul. Negative force being kaal who kept our soul imprisoned here in this world for centuries now. Now that we finally have our beloved calling on to us. We can always choose to be positive. This is our first choice that we can make. For HIM……

Then there is question of our vows. That we struggle so hard to keep. Why do we struggle. Coz some where deep inside our mind we feel that this has been forced on us. We don’t actually love those vows, in this world where senses are stimulated thru every media possible. It’s soo much more easier in satyug or dwapar. When they didn’t have so much mediums for sense gratifications. Here in our modern era we have simply tooo much telling our senses that we need this to become happy or lead easy life. It’s so hard to keep holding our selves back from each and every sense gratification.


Let’s for a moment think as those humans who never heard of this path. We have ourselves known love at some point of our life in any form. Be it love for our parents, a lover, brother or sister, or a friend whom we love to distraction. And then there are those love stories which appeals to our loving nature, or the craving of love inside us. And so we watch all those love stories like dilwale dulhaniya le jayenge, kal ho na ho, kuch kuch hota hai. And thus making them block busters. Coz in each human being there beats a heart which craves for such sacrificing and yearning kind of love who wants to win love at any cost, ready to sacrifice so much.

It appeals to our basic nature when we see a triangle in love story. Where one person silently sacrifice his or her love coz the person he or she loves is in deep love with some one else. Content to remain his or her friend in need, a shoulder to lean on. Or a lover leaving his or her home and traveling great distance just to win his or her’s parents approval with good behaviors and sacrifice so that he or she can finally marry the person he or she loves. The story involves some times years of sacrifice and patience. Of silent unacknowledged love. And yet we love those stories. Coz some how some where we crave for same kind of deep commitment. For such deep love that years apart can’t diminish or break.

This is the craving of our soul. And we actually has that kind of lover. Since the day our soul crying came to this world separated from our source our GOD and HE promised to call us back. While we forgot all about HIM as we took company of mind and senses, vaguely feeling an absence, since those eons of years HE never forgot us. And kept loving us. Finding any excuse to bring us back to call us back. Who knows HE actually grabbed first excuse available to call back many of souls. We never deserved this, as we were the one’s who forgot HIM.. not HIM. HE didn’t.

Now that we understood our craving our yearning of that kind of deep committed love is for our source and that source is waiting for us to reach back and merge in HIM.. we can actually choose to be positive about our commitment. Now is the time for actually living one of those love story. And be a part of that love. Experience that deep love and for that choosing to make any sacrifice required.

Now is our time to be a hero or heroine of that love story. Silently choosing to love deeply and wisely.

It won’t matter to HIM if we keep those vows lovingly or pressurized coz we want to taste that spiritual bliss that books tells us, is within us. But it would matter to us. If we choose those vows with love and positivity rather then feeling…oh I have to keep this vow since I promised. It would matter coz then it’s easier to keep those vows and take active participation. There won’t be a moments hesitation when we are called to choose between our vow or sense gratification. Not a single hesitation.

All we have to do is to feel HIS love and then for that love prepare ourselves for any sacrifice demanded. All we have to do is to choose between our love , the little love we feel for HIM bestowed on us by HIM, and rest of the world. And I believe that feeling of even a little love for HIM will always out weigh the rest of the world.


Making active choice to keep those vows, telling ourselves --- I choose to keep those vows. Will help us tremendously with so much postivity that all our energy will feel charged with love to never hamper our choices. Coz that’s how we are made. We can do anything for the choices we make. And go to any length.

So now when we are prepared to make those choices actively it won’t be hard at all to keep those vows.

To choose our vow of never taking any non-veg or alcohol, we become more conscious more vigilant. When it comes to choose between places where non-veg is also served, restaurants where drinks are also served, friends who make or prepare non- veg dishes , using utensils in which non-veg is cooked or simple eating of fruits and dairy products. We will never hesitate to even leave that thing which hampers our vows. There will be no question of choice ..coz where ever our vow is hampered there choice doesn’t exists….

When it comes to ethical earning of our livelihood there will never be a question of choice between..taking unethical money to fulfill the desire of better car, better television or another house or plot, or not having such desires which asks us to go for unethical money. Coz we choose to follow and fulfill our vow.

When it come to the choice of moral living , there won’t ever be question of choice. Or hesitation. Coz we know that true love we already have. In this world there is nothing that can ever compare or come at par to that love. HIS love. For those who have once tried to find this love and failing they won’t ever want to try here again. Coz they already know the futility. Those living with a partner and yet feeling deep loneliness already knows that this loneliness is to be cherished as it will take the soul more closer to HIM…choosing consciously to find that everlasting love and merging in this love will never let the question of moral living arise.

And last and not the least choosing to remain in memory or remembrance of HIS love contemplating in lover’s form , choosing to remain in loved one’s company is something which every lover knows how to do or rather is the only thing which a lover wants to do. We all know how beautiful it is to live even in the memory of person whom we love. Remaining alone in solitude and going thru loved one’s memory again and again and again… is some thing every lover knows how to do or what pleasure this can bring or yearning it can bring to be near our loved one again. If we can just change this pleasure and this yearning for one true love…all our wanderings in search for that elusive happiness is over. Coz with each day…with our little shaky efforts to be near HIM to feel that pleasure for HIM or yearning for HIM…we actually come near HIM… though we may not know it now. One day we will….

So now is the time for being that hero or heroine in that love story of that movie which we once loved which told us the years of patient waiting for loved one. For sacrifices made for loved one. Even without ever hope for belonging to that loved one yet going on loving and loving and loving. To become that heer or ranjha, laila or majnu , shiri or farhaad , romeo or Juliet or even raaj or simran…

That is all meditation is. That is all those hours means. Sitting in the dark. Waiting for lover to appear, sometimes feeling HIS presence feeding thru little memory HE choose to bestow on us. Some times bringing pleasure sitting in that dark room and some time bringing deep yearning to once just once see HIS beloved face. And some times feeling even HIS apparent “bedardi” as nothing happens. That is all meditation is…our time to live that love story. Only the reward is faaar greater and certain… as there is no failure in this love story and no sad ending.


Peace to all....

1 comment:

  1. Relates this time too.....

    Do not give much time to him....and do not miss him much too....
    But even one or two moments of his remembrance in a whole day bring so much pleasure....what wud have happened ...if i wud have remembered him a lot more....

    Trust & Positivity as you said is very important... and when we trust him, he values that...more than we do....and he is not like us....he lives up to our trust .....much better than our expectations.....

    He is GOD, he proves it everytime....and we are just nothing....very small than him....He is the King...we are not even worth being called Beggars....But still being a part of him, we are more than blessed.

    ReplyDelete